I want what I can't have. I want way too many products I shouldn't buy. I even have way more that I should own to begin with. Why am I not able to resist? Why do I have such a lack of self-control? Why do I need to reward myself, to treat myself, to spoil myself, to make myself feel better with cosmetics I won't use until months later?
"What is it hiding?" I don't know. Random people online asked me this question several times, but I still don't have any good answer for them. Is it really hiding something? Can't I just love something that makes me happy, that makes me feel better? So what if it's just a collection that I don't use? Do people complain when others have Pops (figurines from TV shows and movies), or guns, or stamps, or kitchen tools?
I would guess the problem is not the collection itself, but what it is made of. Cosmetics. Ugh. Satan's work to some. Masks that you put on your face to hide yourself, to act. So what? A beard is like a mask too. A dude with and without beard can look totally different. Why are there no jokes about it, about taking a dude to a barber shop on the first date like there's the joke about taking a girl to the pool just to see her natural face with no makeup? That's unfair. That's quit sexist. Double standards.
I sometimes end up selling some, just to make room for the new ones to come. Maybe I should go through my collection and get rid of a few lipsticks. I want them all, I want to use them all, but I can only wear one color at a time. At least, my mum only thinks I own 30 ish lipsticks. If she only knew the real number... Hope she doesn't find out.
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Bad Habit
General FictionMy very first story in English. Addiction it is about, yes, but... Nothing about drugs or alcohol, no. Only a girl and her lipsticks. A girl, her lipsticks and a rude therapy she never agreed to. Can people really change their bad habbits?
