Gradually.. Eventually

HURT

If your heart and soul could sway and connect with the lyrics of a musician putting out his heart and soul, what's to stop you from connecting to that of a writer's ?

Without pain and sacrifice, we probably would have nothing. I finally learnt and realized that Adversity is the first path to truth.

"Is it really over? Everything we shared, things we said to each other..do they mean nothing now? I couldn't stop asking myself these questions because my heart couldn't seem to fathom how the love we both had couldn't fight to keep us. I understand you're going to be with someone else, love someone else probably be a better you for him.. I find it hard to accept cause I wanted us to grow and be the best of each other."  These words were like an anthem in my head, my subconscious was broken I literally had dreams that woke me up countless times cause of the hurt I was feeling in there.

I felt like I had lost the one thing I could call mine, it broke me to hear the words "don't come to me for solace" my source of happiness didn't even want to trade anything with me for what I used to get willingly at its best. The pain was like my ribs broke and pierced my heart everytime I thought about it all, trust me "EVERYTIME" was a LOT of times daily. So I was literally fucked up, I couldn't down food through my throat, couldn't close my eyes for too long without being haunted by my thoughts. I knew for a fact I was broken and hurt but there was nothing I could do even though I knew I'd have done anything and everything to get things fixed. The only girl in the world, other females just humans. I was shattered... I had literally lost my rational thinking, I mean How could I be reasonable? To me our love was everything and you were my happiness . It was not very pleasant to realize that it was ending.

"I felt her absence. It was like waking up one day with no teeth in your mouth, you wouldn't need to run to the mirror to know they were gone"

We were almost perfect, I mean I was proud to share what we had. The feeling of sudden loss dealt a huge blow to my ego, self-esteem. The anxiety of depression was eating me up. All these made me suffer so badly..my anxiety created the worst kinds of fears. At that point, I became distant from people, I spent time alone hurting, wondering, hoping, regretting, wishing..it was a rush of emotions and none of them gave me a reason to be happy. It felt like she had a choke chain on my heart. I know you wanted this too, or I choose to believe so. What we had was amazing and precious all through the ups and downs, that we can both agree on.

I've loved
I was deeply in love
I was loved deeply
But to no avail
I lost your love.

My heart is in pieces,
My soul crushed
Our plans scattered
And emotions in turmoil.

A stone was sitting on my heart, my heart was heavy. How did we arrive here? Our love was literally the best..What really happened???

THERE'S NO SIDES TO THE STORY, LOVE BETRAYED US.