Gradually.. Eventually

MEMORIES

Sometimes we need to look at the past to refresh the present and to have a better vision for the future.

Memories are priceless; no amount of money can bring them back that is why they are often treasured and cherished. Growing up means that you have to learn and experience how to let go and forget the things that you were used to and moving on with things that you haven't undergone yet.

I honestly cannot believe we won't be able to talk about some things anymore, stuff that made us cringe and smile at each other with love in our eyes. Your beautiful self won't get to dance around the room laughing and teasing me, the little pillow fights, me pulling and tugging your feet while you sleep.

These memories have become a punishment for me and I can't seem to escape them cause everyday is one I want to talk to you about. Telling you how pissed I am I didn't get to eat what I wanted for dinner, lol..and you calming me with your soothing words even through texts I could feel them on my skin. Making plans on when we get to see each other and being crazy eager cause that meant another level of joy, peace and love during that period..your presence was always blissful and the sight of you everytime I mean everytime reminded me how much of an angel you are. Knowing how you always smiled and chuckled whenever I walked up behind you while you in the kitchen and wrap my arms around you, nibbling on your ear and tickling you. I'm always saying stuff to teach you while you're cooking when my sorry self can't cook half as good as you do😂, but it was always fun to always talk to you so I just do it😁.

We did everything to make each other better, with words, motivation, actions. It was astounding..and it will always be cherished. Thinking back, looking at how I made you fall in love with music, now some particular songs give me varied emotions not because of its lyrics or melody but because of the memory associated with it.

"How I miss doing these things with you, all I can do now is to pretend that you are here with me...or I'll just accept this is never happening again and if it were to ever happen, I'll just open my eyes and come back to reality"

How do I explain the things that have caused me pain were the things that I expected the biggest joy from..losing my first love, my dad and now you and all that you gave and stood for..

You were wonderful, I was amazing..together we became special even love began to question us. You were perfect to me, even with your flaws..I mean we all have that, but your love was way above that and that I held on to. I'm not holding onto these things because I do not want to part with them, but because these moments somehow made me happy and elated at some point.

I could write all day, probably all week to put down these memories and moments that we both shared..the ups and downs, the good and bad. All these memories paired with new hopes are a perfect combination for life...it's just pretty ironic wherein the hardest memories to forget are the painful ones. That bittersweet feeling..

Is this all we shared? Hell no! Our precious and cherished moments...

THOSE MEMORIES WON'T BECOME TALES.