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Hanahaki Disease-Kook

She was perfect. She was my best friend. I liked her from the beginning, since middle school. But she never seemed to show any affection towards me
In fact she had a boyfriend, who dumped her.
My feelings for her grew bigger time to time. Everyday passed and I fell for her more and more.
I never told her, cuz our friendship was so precious to me. I feared losing her every moment. I couldn't live a single moment without her is my life.
I never confessed to her because I thought if she doesn't like me back, our friendship will be awkward with her knowing I see her as a woman. I feared that the most.
But loving her for years, more and more everyday, it broke my heart to see her with someone else.
It broke my heart when I saw her text

The moment I saw her text my heart fell into pieces. I lost the last piece of hope I had. I lost the last piece if hope of having her. I lost the hope to even try to make her mine

Days passed, she ignored me. Everytime I wanted to hang out, she said she has dates. When I asked if I can come over, she said she is with Seongwu

Her ignorance made my heart ache. I felt like she doesn't care about me anymore.
All I did was let my tears drop and stare at out old conversations.
She's not the same anymore, she changed. She changed a lot.

More days has been passing by. Days turned into weeks. She never texted me anymore, nor she called.
She ignored my texts, my calls. I don't know why I felt so weak day by day. I turned pale, I couldn't eat, I would throw up all I ate. Now I have breathing problems. I never any before. But now it's hard to breath. I felt like something is always pricking my lungs.
Until one day...........I noticed a red rose petal......it came out of my mouth......I chocked on it......
I was super confused on how it is here. But in the meantime I was wandering, I coughed out one more petal.......

I was so confused on from where the heck are these rose petals coming from. I googled it to find out what is going on.
It showed me a short article....it said—

"Hanahaki Disease"

— It's a rare type of disease. It's caused from unrequited love or one sided love. In this disease, if the victim is from one sided love or the person they love doesn't love them back, they start to grow a flower plant inside their lungs. There's no sure chances on which flower it would be, but mostly its considered to be their crush's favourite one. The victim starts to cough or vomit out flower petals. Sometimes in serious cases they also throw up whole flowers with stem. There is no cure for this disease but to remove the flower surgically. But in this case, after the flower is removed, the victim will lose their feelings for their previously loved ones or totally forget who they are and their memories together. There's also a chance to lose the ability to ever love again. And if they don't get the surgery, there's so high chance of death if they are still not accepted or loved back from their loved one. But this disease heals slowly without even surgery if they are accepted and loved back.

It was all written in the article. I don't know what to do. Should I tell her? Should I straight away get the surgery? Or should I just wait and die? I'm sure she won't accept me. And it was way better to die than forget her totally. That's why I just wanted to wait.
But this condition got worse day by day. Per minute I'd cough out petals. Per hour I'd throw up whole flowers.
Firstly it was tolerable, but now, the petals and the flowers would be soaked in blood.
I didn't told her anything. What's the use of telling when she doesn't even care about me anymore?

I never wanted to get the surgery. But I couldn't live in this situation anymore. That's why I decided to visit the doctor.
But before going, I sent her a text to explain everything in case if I don't remember her anymore.

I wanted her to visit me, but she didn't saw the text I guess. I was in the OT. My operation will start in a few minutes.

I felt sleepy because of the anesthesia. As the surgery is soon, all I remember is letting a drop of tear down, closing my eyes and falling asleep because of the anesthesia.

Your P.O.V:

I was on a date with my boyfriend when I got a notification. I checked it to see Jungkook's text.
"Aahh, I'll check that later!"
I thought to myself ignoring his message

Seongwu: What happened babe? Anything wrong?
Me: Ah, no. It's just a text. I'll check that later
I ignored him like a stranger
Little did I know it was my biggest mistake ever.

When I got home I checked his text
I never expected what I read just now
The message was sent 2 hours ago. It's probably too late.
I wasted no time and rushed to the hospital.
He was still unconscious when I reached there.
After about an hour more waiting there, the doctor told me he was conscious now and I can go see him.
I peeked through the door first, he was munching on his food
When I went in he was looking at me like I'm a stranger. I walked to him, he stared at me like a baby.

Me: Kook....I'm so sorry I'm late. I didn't saw the text. You remember me?
Kook: I'm sorry miss but who are you?

The moment I heard him I broke into tears. I lost him. I lost my best friend because of my own fault.

Kook: W-why are you crying? Did I h-hurt you?

I realised what I did by ignoring him totally.

Me: N-no. It's just- nevermind. I'm no one for you to remember. I'm not a good person. Live a good life.

With that I walked out

I lost my best friend
I lost my last chance to spend time with him. I ignored the one who cared about me the most. I lost the one who loved me the most. He doesn't remember me anymore.

But I'm happy, I'm happy he doesn't remember a selfish person like me.
I'm happy for his life now. I believe he'll live a better life without me in it.