abused deku

uhmm... hi?

soooooooooo, i may be dying. it's a very slim chance that i actually die, but still.

i had an encounter with something most unpleasant, and while i can't talk about it now, i can say that i have to get an immediate surgery tomorrow.

i'm not making this post for sympathy, nor am i making this post for attention. i simply want you guys to know how much your love and support means to me.

seriously, i've never had this much support in my whole life and it means the world. i wanted to say thank you so much for everything you've helped me achieve and accomplish.

if you ever need a friend, don't be afraid to reach out. i'm not sure if this is my last post or if this is the start of a new chapter in my life, but either way, i want you to know that i'm here.

i know this is cheesy as fuck, but i do love you guys and i hope i can continue to make books in the future. if i don't die from this surgery, i have made a bunch of drafts for a new dadzawa/shindeku book that i'm writing.

i think i'll start posting it a day or two from now, depending on if i survive and how i feel.

thank you again for all of the love and support, and don't forget that you're never alone in this world. we all have struggles and the best way to get through them is to get through them together.

take care my children.

"the only thing we have to fear, is fear itself"

what a curious statement. i don't fear death. i don't fear life. i don't fear the concept of fear, yet i'm afraid of balloons. i'm not afraid of being afraid, but i do have fears no one else could imagine.

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stay safe, and remember that there's no reason to be afraid of anything. you don't know what's on the other side of death, nor do you know what other potential life holds; weather it be light or dark.

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oh, and if i do die, here's a few pictures of my ugly ass face. (in half of them i'm wearing my dorky glasses and the other half i have contacts btw. and i'm also wearing all of my sisters clothes in all of these pics lmao)

sorry for all the ugly ass photos, BUT SHUT UP AND LOOK AT MY CAT OSCAR! he'll help you forget the abomination of a human you just looked at!

and yes, i will be continuing this book if i survive. i just needed some time to recharge and refuel!