What Does My Black Mean?

What if I was slimmer?

1.What if I was slimmer?
Days past me as the hands on the clock turn. Magazines are spread across the floor. Yesterday at school there were many words thrown at me. "Fat", "chubby", "piggy" , these weren't even half the words. If you asked my family they would say I was thick and beautiful. I never really understood the difference between fat and thick. I thought they were the same thing. I stand in front of the mirror examining myself ,sucking in my stomach. I asked myself "What if I was slimmer?" My mom walks in the room and I quickly pick of the magazines of the skinny models. She takes one from and starts questioning me all I can do is cry. She tells me she thinks it's time I have a talk with grandmother. The following day she sends me to be with grandmother. My grandmother sits me down at the table and the room fell with quietness. No one said a word. She asked "What do they call you?" I simply replied with "fat." She told me " You're not fat you're thick" , those words played in my head. I was questioning the difference between them. She continued with " Your body doesn't define your beauty" , "There is nothing wrong with you." I processed what she was saying and she said something that caught me off guard. She said "Don't be ashamed of who you are or what you look like because beauty comes from within." I now thought I am a beautiful ,thick , and young lady and I have to accept who I am if I want people to accept me too. I was going to be me. I was no longer worried about looking like others because I wanted to look like me. I may be thick but I am also beautiful.

Quote: "There's a reason God made you,you"