I lost my passion,
But here I am trying to cope.
I lost my interest ,
But now I'm trying to figure out things.
I'm in front of my paper,
Trying to write something else,
Exploring again my mind,
Digging it to find,
My mind is lost.
I think my demons wins,
My demons lost me again,
I'm drowning in my mind again,
I hate this.
I don't know what to do,
I want to pursue my passion,
But I don't know how.
As time goes by,
I lost the old me.
The old me who loves to smile,
The old me who always think life is full of happiness.
Now I get it,
Life sucks!
Life is not full of happiness,
Life is full of surprises.
Life is not like a rainbow,
But it's like a rollercoaster.
Rollercoaster of feelings,
Last time I checked I'm okay,
But now I'm not.
I feel empty,
Without any reason,
Crazy right?
And it sucks,
I just want to be physically hurt than to feel this unknown sadness.
I can't put it into words how much it hurts,
But it hurts like hell,
And I'm confused,
Why am I feeling this way?
Because of this emptiness,
I lost it again,
My passion to write,
With exact words,
And with rhyme I guessed?
My passion is to give advices with the people I love,
To guide them,
And understand them.
But how can I still do it?
If I can't understand even myself.
It's just like I became deaf,
I can't put or expressed my feelings into words,
And it's slowly killing me.
I guessed you can't understand me right now.
I'm sorry,
It's just like I can't write clearly right now.
