Diaries From Covid-19

entry 2

today is the 7th of April, 2020 (Tuesday).

day 26 of quarentine

im done. I can't go see my boyfriend, im spending my birthday in quarantine and I don't even think ill get anything for me turning 15.

last year I got 3 gifts, a ukulele, a suitcase, and pencils that came w some posable mannikins. and that was when my parents were still together. don't get me wrong tho im grateful but it sucks. 

the sad truth is, my boyfriend won't come over because he's not allowed to, his parents are afraid he'll somehow get corona and since they're basically boomers- they're "at risk", and my mom probably doesn't have a lot of money. see, my  brother likes to break things. we took apart his bed because he was breaking it, he's kicked 2 holes in the walls, broken three window screens, broke a door and today broke his school iPad,  which I guess im used to now. 

anyways, im not expecting anything for my birthday, and that's ok. but I guess im trying to celebrate being alive one year longer than I thought I would. which I guess is good, but I won't celebrate. 

my brothers birthday is the day before mine. and the day before his, is my uncles. and then 4 days after mine is my moms. so im kinda in the middle. and being the oldest you would think I'd be ok with it. but after half my life being spent going to therapists and appointments and all the attention going to my brother (which yes it was necessary), I just want one day. and usually he gets upset and throws a tantrum about something, but idk, this is just different now.

im kinda upset I guess, but im just tired.

kk,  bye