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Chapter 16: Jeno, I Feel Weird

It was raining, pouring heavily. The day was only in its early hours of the morning. The sky was still wrapped in its dark navy cloak of night and the dawn barely laid its golden hue on the grey canopy of clouds. The castle's stone walls thundered and rumbled with the wind and water. It was colder than usual, in more than one way.

Renjun woke to his usual ache and sting he felt when he spent the night with Kyungjae. He rolled over like he did most times, stealing a gaze at the alpha in his peaceful state before he awoke. His face looking ever so lovely, so loving. Renjun liked him best like this. It made him forget about everything the alpha said to him that made him feel like nothing, made him forget everything he did to him that caused scars deeper than the flesh. With only the warmth between them and the songs of the rain, Renjun could almost lie to himself, convince himself that Kyungjae cared.

He sighed gently to himself as he sat up, hissing at the sharp pain in his tail bone as he did. He looked back at Kyungjae beside him, his eyes closed and soft like butterfly wings. 'Just one kiss', Renjun thought, 'Just one. He wouldn't even notice. He's asleep.' He smiled before leaning down and placing a gentle kiss upon Kyungjae's lips. His smile grew bigger as he pulled away slowly only to be gripped by the neck in a tight and aggressive hold, Kyungjae's eyes now wide open and dark with anger.

"What was that?" He growled, Renjun's breathing picking up with panic. His ears were turned back and his eyes were avoidant of the other's frightening gaze.

"I-I.." Renjun blubbered nervously, fighting the urge to break down into tears.

"You know not to, little doe." Kyungjae growled, his claws coming out to tease the bruised skin of the faun's soft neck.

"I-I know. I k-know." Renjun broke, crying as his head hung low so the alpha wouldn't see how pathetic he looked.

Kyungjae huffed with disgust before pushing Renjun off the bed and onto the floor. "Get out." He ordered, rolling back into his sheets once again.

Renjun's cries got louder and more shattering as he picked up his clothes, his body aching not as nearly as painful as his heart. The rain got louder as if sobbing with him or at least taking pity on him and being louder for the sake of washing away his cries in its heavy sound. He shimmied his clothes back on with the shakes of his harsh sobs, his tail nestled between his legs as he left the room like a ghost.

The small faun collapsed against the wall once his cries became too much, his hands shaking in front of his face as he tried to hide himself from the world. He knew he looked disgusting with his red eyes and wet nose, his lips trembling as he took a deep inhale every now and then, his ears turned back and lowered.

It hurt so much. But what hurt even more was the fact his feelings didn't change. He would let Kyungjae walk over him a thousand times and more if he got to hold him when he slept. It made Renjun hate himself even more than he already did, more than the world did.

"Renjun?" The faun barely heard over the rain and sobs.

He felt someone kneel down next to him, their gentle arm wrapping around his back. It made him shrink further down into his knees, his hands coming closer to his face. He didn't want anyone to see him like this.

"Renjun, what happened?" They asked with worry. Renjun knew that voice from anywhere. It was Jaemin. He felt the prince sit down next to him, another arm wrapping around his front, the other pulling him into a hug.

"N-Nothing." Renjun sniffled.

"Renjun." The young omega scolded lightly with care in mind, "You're the one that told me not to belittle my concerns. Please, it hurts me to see you like this."