12/6/14
I'm sorry. I'm embarrassed. It was wrong. I didn't mean to make everyone this upset over some silly project. I know I never belonged. It wasn't right of me to think that any of you actually liked me. I'm dumb. I don't know how to see when you're faking it. When that smile, comment, or laugh wasn't really real. When that little conversation had no significance. When I thought I had friends, but I didn't. I still don't. I don't think they ever really mean it. I have trust issues for this exact reason.
It hurts. It really hurts, but they don't think about that. Maybe I shouldn't, either. Will that make the wheels on the road of life turn smoothly?
