Heart full of Passion

10.

I...

Every now and then, you ask me who I am...

Well, I'm not the funny type,
whose jokes will make you laugh,
nor the savage, diva one,
who will come and boss you around.

You won't see me start a talk,
or flirt around in the school hall,
you won't see me get up a stage,
I'll be hidden in the audience instead.

I'm the one who turns tomato-red,
every time someone makes a compliment,
I'm the one who always runs away,
especially when she has to stay.

I'm a bunch of unspoken words,
and a big pile of messy thoughts,
they say I'm unfriendly and cold as ice,
but I'm just scared I'll mess it up.

I'm scared of so many things,
and I'm fragile and very weak,
I sometimes wish I wasn't like this,
but that's how God wanted me to be.

My looks are not perfect,
my personality sometimes sucks,
but I'm very honest with myself,
and that is the best part.

Sometimes I try to hide my flaws,
but then realize that's not what I want,
I actually want people to see them all,
and then decide if they'll stay or not.

After such a long time I'm at peace with myself,
I've not explored everything and that is okay,
I still need to learn and deal with lots of things,
but now I'll enjoy the moment and let it be.

I'm not drop-dead gorgeous, but beautiful anyway,
I'm not a perfect person, but I always work on that,
I didn't like myself, but now I regret,
what's wrong with me if God wanted me this way?

05.08.2019
AnahoJ

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This one is a very special poem for me and it felt right sharing it with you guys. Writing it made me accept myself, just the way I am, with all my pretty imperfections and flawless flaws.
Girls, you are beautiful! In your very own and unique way... You don't need anyone to tell you that, but you do need yourself to believe it. The moment you stand in front of a mirror and accept and love what you see, is the moment that you've won the hardest battle, the one against yourself and everything seems prettier and brighter. Don't be too harsh on yourself! Love and appreciate yourself cause believe me that is the first step towards others loving and appreciating you!
I love you all and thank you for your constant support!