Peace of My Heart

Peace of My Heart

Addison swears Callie to secrecy, she reveals her long-lasted lesbian affair with Meredith Grey to encourage her friend to finally come out of the closet. MerAdd. Callica to Calzona. Rated M.

Set in GA Season 4, Episode 13, "Piece of My Heart."

Ps. There's an obvious allusion to the GA premiere here, ten points for whoever comments it. :)

"Callie, are you speaking the Vagina Monologues" Addison teases her as she crunches her potato chips into her mouth, one by one, one by one. And she waits for it all to sink in for Callie.

And Callie freaks out at her a little and tells her that clearly she's been living in L.A way too long - way too long - if she thinks that Calliope Torres has suddenly switched sides to be a lesbian.

Callie begs her to please explain to her what she means when she advocates "I'm all for it, I mean, I think it's fantastic." Addison explains to her without any hesitation or reservations.

"Well, I just mean that I admit that there is that a peace of my heart will always lie with women and that they bring me something that men cannot" Addison states were really so simple.

"Since when have you 'spoken the Vagina Monologues' if that's apparently what you call it" Callie exclaims to her incredulously as if her best friend had been keeping secrets from her.

"Ahem, last time I've spoken them would have been at let's say ten-thirty this morning," Addison says with a shrug. Addison explains it all to her as she's sipping at her juice box.

Off Callie's stunned look she explains that she didn't tell her because one doesn't generally announce they're having affairs with their ex-husband's girlfriend even with their best friends.

She swears Callie to secrecy before she whispers about her seven moments of heaven in lesbian land. Seven of her deepest indulgences with lady-lover of hers, Doctor Meredith Grey.

7

"See the first time anything at all happened between us, we were both extremely emotional. We had a difficult case and there was this baby who didn't make it and I was crying the way I do when a child dies. And I was lonely, and she was there. So I just let her be there for me.

And she held me close and she told me "I'm sorry" and she was saying all of these perfect things. Like how I was a good surgeon and how I would have made a really great wife had Derek not been so absent and I just needed to feel something. So I let her sit next to me.

So when she pressed her lips to mine I didn't pull away and I let myself kiss her back. I let the curves of her lips hit mine and her soft breaths fall on my own. And I let her move our mouths together oh, so gently. Like it was only a dream. And she was only a dream. I was dreaming.

And I said to myself that me and Derek, we're even now because Derek hid me from her and I hid Mark from Derek so we're even now and I felt better. Like I was getting even or getting back at him for something and she agreed. So I thanked her as she ran her fingers through my hair.

And I don't remember saying much else because before I could say anything or before she could say anything to me I had fallen asleep. And before I knew it, it was already morning. And I thought she would still be there next to me. I think she was but she left right before I woke up.

And for some inexplicable reason, I wished that she'd stayed lying in bed next to me. I missed the warmth of her body, yet the coolness of her touch. I missed the way she smelled like lavender on the top of her head. And I missed that she was so much gentler than Derek was.