What the Heart Wants

Chapter Three

We walked into the house at around midnight and I could've passed out on the spot. I changed out of my clothes and threw them on the ground and brushed my teeth. I grabbed one of Ashton's flannels and threw on some grey sweatpants. As I walked in the bedroom I noticed the picture of Ashton and I from our first date. I admired how happy we were in that picture. I thought I knew he was the one. Nowadays, I'm not so sure. I was interrupted by large hands squeezing my sides in a successful attempt to tickle me causing me to spin around and back up against the wall as he kept his hands on my hips. He stared right through me with his hazel eyes.
"So beautiful," he said as he leaned in. I placed my hands on his face as he placed his lips on mine with gentleness that soon started to become more intense.
"Can I be a little bad?" He teased. I nodded. He picked me up and placed me on the bed nibbling at my neck as I wrapped my legs around his waist. He helped me pull his shirt over his head as he played with the hem of my pants. But I soon became scared. I wasn't ready. My stomach filled with anxiety from fear but excitement because he was just so electrifying. Ashton did it once before, and I knew he was just as nervous as me. It wasn't necessarily about him losing his virginity though. Instead, it was his fear of hurting me.
"A-Asht--," I hummed into his ear.
"I know, baby. I won't go all the way until you're ready," he replied as relief flooded through my body, "I just want to be a little closer. Okay, kitten?" He whispered below my ear sending chills down my body.
I bit my lip and nodded as he slid down my sweats leaving me in my shirt and underwear. I placed small kisses across his bare collarbone. My stomach hurt from everything I was feeling. I soon rolled over on top of him which earned us both a chuckle. He snaked his arms around my waist as mine went around his neck. We were lost in the kiss. Lost in the moment. Lost in bliss. The kiss deepened and I craved him more and more. I reached up and pulled his hair and received a quick response that enticed me that much more. I began unbuttoning the flannel which slowly exposed my skin.
"So beautiful, kitten." My cheeks flushed a deep red. I was slightly unsure of myself and completely acted on impulse, "Don't hide. It's only me, okay?" I nodded sheepishly. He ran his fingers down my back as I quickly responded with a light sigh.
"Wait, it's ok. Don't do this for me. Please. Only when you're ready, baby."
My response was simple.

I'm ready.