Diary of a Varsitt Girl

Chapter seven

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When I got to my room , I didn't waste any more time , I decided to finish packing and just head home.

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When I got home , I knocked a couple of times but it looked like my mom wasn't here and so was Mandy , our help. I decided to take a walk to the park as I needed to think about what I've done , I couldn't believe I did that. What I did makes me even worse than the girls who fight for Gusman's attention in class. I also couldn't stop thinking about Eddie , I mean I practically just cheated on the guy with my lecturer , how am I even gonna face Gusman on Monday? I was pulling my Loui Vuitton suitcase to the park and sudden I hear someone hooting at me. My heart started beating so fast , I could feel my armpits flood with sweat , my adrenaline levels rose I swear I was at the edge of fainting. (Can this day get any worse?)
It was my ex , Antonio. This guy made my life so miserable for 3 whole fucken years , I hated him and often wished he could just die so I never have to see him again. He broke my heart into bits and pieces and he didn't even feel guilty at all ,But guess what ? Time and Time again I kept on forgiving him and going back to him because I loved him so much. This stupid son of a B invaded my privacy and violated my rights and broke up with me in front of 240 learners of Berry Brooklyn High School. For months I became the laughing stock of the school and I was embarrassed , I even tried to commit suicide once because of the bullshit he put me through.

He parked his car beside the road and oh so help me Lord I felt like disappearing because I didn't wanna be arrested for murder after cheating on my boyfriend with my lecturer.
' Emily!' he shouted as he was crossing the road trying to get to the where I was on the other side of the road.
I try to walk as quickly as possible because the last thing I needed was to actually hear a word that he has to say to me , in fact what could he possibly want from me? He fucked me up as it is , and I managed to fuck myself up as well so I don't need to be fucked up again.

' Emily , wait!  I just wanna talk.' he shouts again as he gets closer. I didn't have the energy to go run so I just stood there as he approached.
When he got closer I asked ,
what do you want Antonio?
' I just wanna talk'
Oh well you better be fast because I don't wanna see your face for more than 5minutes
' look Emily , I'm really Sorry for the things I did to you , took me long enough to realize that I was an asshole to you and treated you like shit ' he paused for a few second and this gave me time to say , 3minutes left... He continued talking
' I know that all you did was love me and I took advantage of that and of you , I'm sorry Emily '
I couldn't believe that the words "I'm sorry "just came out of Antonio's lips , as much as I wanted to accept his apology part of me just couldn't let me.
Whatever Antonio , it's a bit too late to apologise now.
' I know , but I hope you forgive me someday Emie.'
Yeah , sure I have to go home now.
' can I just give you a lift home as my peace offering , I know it's not enough but I'm gonna try '
I wasn't going to let it go just that easily , but I didn't wanna walk back home so I just accepted the offer and hopped into his car.
The silence was so loud on our way home and it was really awkward being in his car , I had a lot of flash backs and wanted to just cry but I kept my cool (shout out to strong women) I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of seeing me cry again.
He broke the silence by saying
' you're beautiful Emily '
I didn't say anything until we got home ,my mom's car was parked outside. As soon as he pulled over on the side of the road , I got out of the car and just said , thanks. I didn't even give him the chance to say anything.

When I reached the door , I knocked and it was as if my mom knew that I'm on the other side of the door because she opened immediately with a big smile on her face. She didn't know that I was coming so it was a sort of surprised for her. She was so happy to see me and to be honest , so was I. I just told her that I'm so exhausted and wanted to sleep , she understood and let me go to my room.

When I got to my room , I looked at my phone and I had 2 missed calls from Anna , 1 from Ed and 3 from Beth. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone so I decided to take a shower in my en suite and immediately went to sleep in my comfy king sized bed with all the stuffed animals on the bed.