Diary of a Varsitt Girl

Chapter eight

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A woke up at 4am the next day , feeling so hungry hence I didn't eat .I was lazy to go downstairs to the kitchen to make food , so I just took my phone and logged in to my WhatsApp, ignoring all the missed calls I had.
There was a message from an unknown number saying ,' I forgot how beautiful you are i, I still have goosebumps by the way. ' nchoa , sucha lovely message to wake up to , I thought to myself. I kind of blushed but I knew who the sender was , of course it was Antonio .Wait am I actually blushing because of Antonio ?come on Emily , what's wrong with you , Gee.
I didn't reply the message , and just went on to call Beth to tell her that I went home so she doesn't worry too much about my whereabouts , but of course she was sleeping duh , it's 4am she didn't pick up so I just left her a message.

' I am bored ' I said to myself as I jumped out of my comfy bed and made my way to the kitchen , there was no bread whatsoever probably because my mom is hardly home .I took some ready-made pizza from the freezer and put it in the oven.
All I could think of right now was how handsome Antonio is , his green eyes , blond hair and his essence...wait why am I even thinking about him , Emily snap out of it , he hurt you remember? I was disturbed by the biping of the oven , I took the whole pizza , some snacks and how could I forget ice cream...hey!don't judge me , food is life. I made my way to my bedroom planning to watch a movie probably on netfliks or showmax.

I jumped on my bed , tuned in to netfliks and started digging in my food starting with the ice cream , this time around it was just plain vanilla

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I heard tiny stones hit my window , I looked outside and there he was , he pointed to his phone signing that I should look at my phone. Holy sh*t , it's past 4am and this guy is outside my house , is he insane?

He called as I grabbed my phone from the side table . I didn't hesitate ,I  answered and went straight to the point.
What the fuck do you want now Antonio?
' can you open the window , I just want to talk'

That's what he said the last time I saw him and I found myself in his car , can I really trust myself around this guy? Am I even over him? Shit Emily you have a boyfriend and you still trying to figure out if your over your ex? I am a fucked up teenager.
I didn't reply , I just opened the window and hung up. I saw him climb the tree right outside like he always did the time we were still dating. When he was inside , he made his way to my bathroom to relieve himself .I turned around to look and the bustard didn't even close the door. I covered my eyes and he noticed because the next thing he said was ' it's nothing you've never seen before' , he smirked.
I just smiled and sat on my bed finishing off the ice cream.  He came over and sat right next to me and stole a slice of pizza , ewe I didn't even see him wash his hands , gross! I thought to my self.
' I'm sure you're wondering why I am here right?'
Yeah well duh why is he even asking!

Yeah, why are you here Antonio?
' Emie ,I couldn't stop thinking about you after graduation. About how I messed our relationship up and all and I feel bad, and after seeing you yesterday it brought back a lot of mixed feelings. You see , I don't even know if I'm over you.' He looked on the floor and I could tell that he wasn't planning on saying the last sentence. He was being sincere I could feel it because I know this guy , I've known him since I we were seven years old. I remembered that it was my turn to speak. Instead of saying something I found myself moving closer to Antonio and touching his hand.Wait!What am I doing ? hello !!!he ruined your life why on Earth would you comfort him , the little voice in my head kept saying.

Yeah he ruined my life but I can't just leave him feeling like this , I'm not that kind of person. I'm a good person, I convinced myself.

He finally got the courage to look me in the eyes and said , 'Emily i am sorry for being a jerk to you , can you please forgive me?' . I nodded and he quickly hugged me and for some weird reasons I felt safe in his arms.

He pulled away and looked into my eyes before pulling me closer and landing his lips on mine .It felt just like old times , his soft lips were wrestling with mine. He started biting my lower lip and I found myself talking off his t-shirt. He stopped and looked me in the eyes , ' are you sure you want to do this?'  ,I nodded reaching out to kiss him. His hand made it's way to my panties as he fingured me , he knew that one finger wasn't enough for me and I immediately felt him put the other one inside me. He came on top of me and I helped him take off his pants and underwear. He was hard.
'do you want it Emily , do you want me to fuck you?' he said over his breath.
Yes babe, I said in between my moans
'are you ready ' , I nodded ,I felt his penis enter and I moaned...He knows that I love it fast when it comes to him and he didn't hesitate , he fucked me so fast and after a little while he said ,' babe you cummed' , he sounded so happy for some reason as if he achieved something..I moaned 'louder babe please', OMG ! This is like the best sex I've had , I obeyed and went a little louder. He started kissing me and I was weak to even touch him all I did was moan in between our kisses. He cummed but still didn't give up , and that is what I always liked about him...I mean it's always nice after we both cum but it doesn't mean we should stop f*cking. He continued to f*ck me until he was hard again and the fun continued...I was really thirsty for this , I wanted to get laid so bad and there is nothing better than getting laid by someone who knows all about your body , your G-spot , all your weakness and turn on's.

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After 45 minutes , we we're done and we we're just cuddling ,  watching movies on Netflix, catching up and talking about our throw backs , the good ones obviously. It was then when I remembered how much I actually still love Antonio and he gets me more than anyone in this whole world...Yes , I was considering forgiving him and not because I wanted to jump in a relationship with him but because I was ready to move on from the past , to let everything go and start afresh as friends.
But wait! Do friends have sex?
Shut up voices in my head!!

It was now half past 10am, Antonio was about to leave and I was so sad but I understand that my mom shouldn't find him here ...She was going to freak out and probably kill him and I didn't want that to happen.
' I will come back later okay and probably spend the night if you don't mind.'
Of course ,I said in my sobbing voice.
He kissed me goodbye on the cheek and he made his way out through the window. Not even 2 minutes after he left , he sent me a text saying ,' I still love you.'  i sent a blushing emoji and made my way downstairs

I obviously couldn't tell him that I love him too , it's too soon.