The time is 3:00 am
Hello, once again I am back to report my somewhat predictable day. ✨
I set my alarm for 9am but somehow I didn't hear it and slept until 1:44 pm! I mean, I guess I needed it, I slept really deeply and had a really vivid dream but I can't explain it since it's kinda fuzzy now. But dangit I'm supposed to be sleeping on a schedule here! damn u, mild electronics addiction..!
I didn't do much today except be on my phone and play acnl as usual these past few days.. I'm kinda sad because where I live, we're supposed to get severe storms on easter which is supposed to be a NICE day :( I mean, I'm not religious but I still love easter tho, its fun and u get candy! And It's just nice to go outside and see all the little kids running to find colorful plastic eggs. Ah, memories... Egg hunts used to be the greatest thrill, did they not? Well at least we can still purchase chocolate at cvs, that's enough easter for me ✨(hey, it's an essential business!)
Also, my whole family is sad right now for a reason I dont wish to discuss yet, so forgive me if these posts aren't so enthusiastic the next few weeks. I'll try tho. I almost forgot to post today (I mean, technically It's the next day but whatever lol)
So yeah, that's pretty much what happened today ✨🌹 🌙
Before I go though, I would like to share today's
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conversation piece ✏
What is your favorite memory?
Whenever I'm sad I like to think of a montage of some of the best memories in my life with a nice song in the background..
One thing that I'm grateful for is having a really strong memory. Like many people, I remember many things that happened all the way back when I was 3-4 years old. Of course It's not the clearest since it was so long ago, but when I talk about them my mom or other people in my family confirm. Either that or they don't remember lol.
Some people get something called "false memories", which means their dreams get mixed up with their memories over time and when they say "hey remember when *this* happened?" the other person is just like "...huh??"
I can usually differ them if I think about it hard enough, though.
Looking at old pictures (which my mom has hundreds of) makes the memories of what was happening come flooding back to me, certain distinct visuals of the event and even sometimes what was said. I have several pictures from me and my siblings' early childhood on my phone and sometimes when I'm bored, I'll just scroll through them and enjoy the nostalgia ✨
During a time when I was about 11-12 and was always depressed I would often think: "I wish I could just go back to when I was little, when there were no problems, for just a day and I could be happy again." but the truth is, there were problems all around. It's just your childhood innocence and less awareness that keeps them from affecting you, plus you don't have the stress of adulthood (or even adolescence) on your shoulders. As I got older, and better, I realized you don't need the innocence of childhood to be happy and make happy memories. To me, awareness is subjectively better than innocence. Besides, a life that's all fun isn't that fulfilling in my opinion. There's a lot more stress and pressure as you get older. One thing that really gives me a lot of anxiety is the thought of working a 9-5 desk job for my whole life, in a small office cubicle and no vacation days.. And It's sad many people don't get the breaks they deserve to have.. But I'm glad that I'll soon be an adult because adulthood gives you a louder voice. I want to be one of the people to fix problems in the world in a way that you just can't as a young child... So people won't need to be sad because they miss their childhood innocence.. Innocence doesn't have to equal happiness.
So anyways, I should probably sleep before it gets any later, goodnight to anyone who happens to see this, and I hope you have great dreams. Always remember: your brain is an incredible thing 🌻
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I'll conclude this post with the
QUOTE OF THE DAY:
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"You may never know the value of a moment before it becomes a memory."
~unknown
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