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Chapter 9: Apology

A few days pass. Bakugo still refuses to say a word to me. I really just want to talk to him and apologize, even if he doesn't forgive me. I can't erase the sight of him standing in his doorway a few nights ago all broken up and tired because of me out of my mind.

Ashi tries to help me through it until he finally agrees to talk to me, but it's no use. I'm a mess for the next week, and Baku has yet to say anything to me or even look at me.

Later, exactly a week after the whole ordeal happened, I'm laying in my room, looking up at the ceiling. Ashi tried to convince me to come down to the common area and play board games with her and the rest of the girls, but I told her that A- I didn't want to mess up their girls' night and B- I needed a night to myself. Which is true, but I don't really know how another night alone with my thoughts is gonna help me at all.

As I lay there, I think about how stubborn Bakugo is. And how much I probably hurt him, even though I didn't mean to. With those two things combined, I doubt he's gonna budge anytime soon. I finally realize that this might be the end of our relationship.

I really, really don't like thinking that, but I mean, if he won't talk to me at all, what else can I think? I understand that I hurt him, and I still feel beyond terrible about that, but if he won't talk to me and just let me apologise, it's out of my hands. As much as I love him, I can admit that Bakugo is too stubborn for his own good sometimes, and this may be one of those times.

I groan and roll over so that my face is shoved into my pillow. I close my eyes and sit in the darkness for a few seconds before I decide to get up and do something. What exactly I'm gonna do, I'm not sure, but I need to do something other than sit here and mope.

As I stand up from my bed, there's a knock at my door. I assume it's probably Ashi, trying one more time to get me to come down and play board games, so I walk over and open it. I'm very surprised to see a tired, angry, and sad looking Bakugo on the other side.

As soon as I see him, my heart drops. My first thought is, Shit, here it comes. He's gonna break up with me. I push that though down as much as possible and say, "Hey, Bakugo..." I start to say more, but I have no idea what else to say, so I end up just trailing off.

He sighs and crosses his arms over his chest. Quietly, he says, "I'm ready to talk, Shitty Hair. You gonna let me in?"

Surprised, I stutter back, "O-Oh yeah, come on in," and move out of the way so he can walk in. Once he walks past me through the door, I close it behind us and then turn around to face him.

He's standing in the middle of the room, arms still crossed impatiently. As I stand there and stare at him, he motions for me to start talking. Shaking my head to clear my thoughts, I take a deep breath and start, "Bakugo, I'm so sorry about what happened last week. I understand if you don't wanna forgive me, cause what I did was shitty, and I shoulda known it sounded bad and was gonna hurt you, but I was just stupid and didn't realize what I was saying. I hope you know that I absolutely love you and the way you are and everything like that and I would never actually ask you to change yourself for me or anyone else. I'm so sorry, Bakugo."

His stance softens slightly as I talk, and by the time I'm done, his arms are uncrossed and the anger has left his face. I look at him nervously once I finish, and he just sighs rather sadly. We're quiet for a few seconds until he rubs a hand over his face and says quietly, "I know, Kirishima. I fucking knew you didn't mean it like that, and I shouldn't have blown up like I did. It just kinda hurt at the time because..." he trails off for a second, clearly not wanting to admit whatever he's gonna say next, "Because sometimes you're the only one who actually likes me. Even when I don't really like myself, you're always so fucking optimistic and shit and telling me how great and manly I am, and I guess hearing something that could technically mean you don't like me really fucking hurt. Something in me just wouldn't let me believe that you didn't mean it like that, either, so I just got even angrier. That's why it took me so long to come and talk."

I listen quietly as he talks. We're quiet again once he's done, and I honestly don't know what else to say. I can tell, though, that he forgives me and hates fighting like this just as much as I do, so I guess we're okay. Still, I don't wanna do anything and jump to conclusions and possibly make him mad again or anything, so I just stand there quietly and look at the floor.

Finally, after about a minute, he says, "Goddamn, Shitty Hair, are you gonna come fucking hug me or not? I can't take this silence anymore."

I look up at him and grin. Taking that as a sure sign that we are in fact okay now, I run over to him and catch him into a hug. He hugs me back tightly and we stand there like that for what feels like forever.

After what's realistically a few minutes, I pull back and look at him, a grin still on my face. "So, we're good now, right?"

He looks at me as if I just said the stupidest thing ever. "No, dumbass, I'm just hugging you because I love hugs." He pauses for a second and then smiles back at me. "Yes, idiot, we're good now." He pulls me back into a hug as I laugh.

With a happy sigh, I lay my head on his shoulder as we hug. "Let's not fight like that again, okay?" I say.

He scoffs and replies, "Agreed. That whole week was torture."

With that, we both hop onto my bed and agree to watch a movie for a while until we fall asleep. As we lay on my bed and watch the movie, I cuddle close to him. Right before I'm about to dose off, I hear him say quietly, "Hey, Kiri?"

I hum in response. He continues, "I really fucking love you."

My heart thuds as I hear this. I think this is the first time he's ever actually said that. A smile growing on my face, I snuggle a little closer to him and reply, "I love you too, Bakugo."
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A/N: fun fact, I'm really embarrassed to post this entire story cause I wrote the original version like a year ago (I'm basically just kinda rewriting it a little and then posting it on here) so it's definitely not my best writing and I think a lot of it is stupid. My point here is, I almost didn't post this and wanted to just stop writing this story completely b/c it just gets worse from here but I decided to continue it anyyywayyy. I'm sorryyyy lol
Thank you so much if you have stuck around this long and I hope you will continue to suffer through my younger self's writing with me, see you next time~