The Lilly Within the Ashes

Ch 16

Lilly

I don't know what to do.

I woke up seeing a head of hair on my chest. Knowing  it's just Jason, I tried to remove myself from underneath him, but he proceeded to grip more on my waist and shove his face further into my breast. I'm starting to freak out a little bit since I now have my boobs being used as a pillow and breathing has become a task. 

"Uh Jason..." I whisper. He starts to move his body around but kept his head where it was. I tried pushing him off and even tried poking his face. "Jason!" He starts to groan and looks up at me, thankfully  removing his head from my chest. "God this fucking headache." He grips the side of his head with a look of pain on his face. "Well this might teach you to not get drunk again." A small smirk formed from my comment. He completely removes himself from me, but grabs my waist and pulls me on top of him. 

"Jason we still need to talk." Another groan comes from the giant holding onto me for dear life. "Fine. But lets get breakfast first. And stop being so loud woman, my head is pounding." I push on his chest and remove myself from the bed. I thought I saw him pout at my actions, but I ignored him and proceeded to do my morning routine. 

As Jason and I were walking side by side, Anthony greeted us as we entered the kitchen. "Well glad to see my favorite couple together!" A wide toothy smile was on his face. A large blush started to  blossom on my cheeks. "Wha-what are you talking abo-about Anthony?" Jason grips my shoulder and softly pushes me behind him. "Shut your fucking mouth Anthony." he grits through his teeth. 

As Anthony left telling me he was sorry, Jason lead me over to the counter. "What was he talking about Jason?" He lifted me up onto the stool and placed his hands on the side of the chair. "Nothing for you to worry about sweetheart." He leaves me to go grab us something to eat. The rest of breakfast was silent. 

Jason

I am sweating bullets. I thought I discussed everything with her last night. Well at least I think I did. Now that I no longer have any alcohol running through my system, I don't know what to do. I have honestly never been this nervous before.

"Jason do you maybe want to go sit in the living room." she asked. Oh god she's going to ask me to leave again. She can't leave me. I need her. Like REALLY need her. My world would end-

"Jason?" A look of concern was shown on her face. "Oh yeah that is fine." I speak quickly while clearing my throat. We go to sit on the couch and are sitting at a distance that bothered me. She was too far from me to just go and hug her but was close enough for me to just barely touch her.

"So what do you want to cover? I really thought I covered everything last night?" I see her wrap her arms around her, trying to make herself seem smaller. "I-it's more of a que-question." Her face started to turn an adorable hue of pink. I nodded my head to let her know to continue. "Um we-well if everything was different, and you came to see my parent's before the o-other man did, wo-would you have ki-killed my parents and I?"  

"No." I was so angry. Not at her. But angry with myself that she had to even ask this question. "Lilly." I sighed. "The moment I would have seen your face, I would have known you had no fault in your parent's decision to borrow money from me. Now for your parents, I still would need to do some form of punishment since it is still part of the business. Before you, I probably would have killed them, but for you I wouldn't." 

As I was telling her this, I didn't even realize I was moving myself closer to her until my face was only inches from hers. I could see her gorgeous hazel orbs, the freckles that are sprinkled across her entire face, and her luscious and adorable lips. I look back up at her eyes and notice her staring at my lips. "Can I kiss you?" I hesitantly whisper so softly I'm surprised she could hear me. The surprised and pink face beauty in front of me slowly nods her head. I go to cradle her cheek with my hand, "I need words Lilly." A soft whispered yes escapes from her rose colored lips. 

One moment I'm staring at her, the next moment I'm crashing my lips onto hers. A jolt of energy, happiness, and warmth spread through me the moment our lips touch. She seemed hesitant at first but started follow what I was doing very slowly. I tried to pour in all of my feelings for her into this kiss. To pull her closer, one hand was pulling on her waist to place her on my lap and the other one was placed on the back of her head. She slowly moved her hands into my hair, causing a groan to escape my lips. 

She slowly pushed away after a while to catch our breaths. We're breathing heavily with her in my lap and our foreheads resting on each other. Her eyes were closed, but just staring at the girl that I am in love with is the only thing I realized I ever needed. Her eyes slowly open and stared deeply into mine. "I really like you Lilly."  She giggled and hugs me.  I started thinking that I missed something. Or what I said was wrong and that the kiss happened too soon.

 "I know Jason. You told me last night before you drunkly passed out." I am the one that is blushing now. "Um I wasn't planning on telling you my feelings for you like that..." I cough out awkwardly. "Well I kind of found it cute." she giggles again. Her words left me speechless and all I could do was stare at her in amazement. My staring caused her pink blush to turn bright red. She looked down at her fingers that she was playing with and said the words that I didn't think I would hear,

"I really like you too Jason."