Dear Mark hyung,
I remember that day before you left me hanging with hurtful words, without explanation. Those words that struck in my mind and shattered heart. You wish something for me. That wish that I didn't know you took that seriously. ' I want you gone or I'll be gone. ' What can I be so oblivious? Am I that horrible person? Am I too annoying brat? Not enough to be your friend? I can't see anything wrong. We actually made a plan for our vacation trip on Jeju, but it turns out you avoided me. You've been a great brother and close friend to me. That was one of my wish, to have a great friend by my side. You fulfilled those, so why not to fulfill your wish for me too? That's all what I can do to bring the old Mark. Our friends missed you for being a giddy one, and I think I can bring back though.
Frankly speaking, I'm scared, I don't know what will happen to me after I die. Will I see myself in heaven or hell? and it freaking hurts. It's more painful than experiencing complications. It hurts more knowing that I can't see you, my friends anymore. What would happen if I die? Is everything would be back to normal? I hope you don't feel bad about this. This is my choice too, to end my sufferings. Losing my family, relatives, friends and you, hyung. I would like to thank you for everything, for all your patience, love and care. You are the only Mark Lee that I know who has an obsession in watermelons. No one can compares to you. You are adorable and lovable guy, you even make me falling too hard in you and seems I can't easily move on. You taught me something and I realized something. You made my world lively and colorful but it brought back into dull again. You taught me what love feels like and what hurt was. Can things get any better than this?
I'm sorry hyung, your wish will be now granted.
- Lee Donghyuck
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