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No. This is not true.
My mind went haywire as I found myself pulling my hair out of frustration. I don't know what to feel after finding out the truth and how he beared the pain without telling us. I feel angry, sad, pain, upset, guilty, and overwhelm. I can't believe this is actually happened. This is all just a nightmare, right? if it is, please someone wake me up. It's driving me crazy. Did I really caused all of this? Is this all my fault? If there's something happened to him, I can't forgive myself until I die.
My eyes landed back inside of the box, seeing the tape recorder and the gold chain of a necklace, I supposed. I slowly grabbed the tape recorder first with my shaky hands.
Nothing to waste anymore time, I quickly put the vhs tape in the tape recorder. I defeatly slumped my buttocks down in my bed. I closed my eyes shut once I heard a soft little tune of piano keys as seemingly like the introduction and then followed by the beautiful melodies. I hummed along the rhythmic series of musical tones but then halted when a honey voice came into my earshot. I smiled bitterly when I remembered our nostalgic memories, with my heartache starting to beat oddly.
Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath
Feeling like I'm walking my last steps
Look at all of these tears I've wept
Look at all the promises that I've kept
I put my heart into your hands
Here's my soul to keep
I let you in with all that I can
You're not hard to reach
And you've blessed me with the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose
Yeah, you've given me purpose
Thinking my journey's come to an end, oh
Sending out a farewell to my friends
For inner peace
Ask you to forgive me for my sins
Oh would you please?
I'm more than grateful for the time we spent
My spirit's at ease
No. He's not dying.
As I slowly opened my eyes, a tear was now streaming down against my red flushed cheek. I tried to wiped it away but I got betrayed. I sobbed quietly but it only got louder, covering my mouth using my both bare hands to muffled the noise that I was emitting as much as I can.
I put my heart into your hands
Learn the lessons you teach
No matter when, wherever I am
You're not hard to reach
And you've given me the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose everyday
You give me purpose in every way
Oh, you are my everything
Oh, you are my everything
I'm sorry Haechan-ah, I'm so sorry.
Remembering something, I carefully took the gold necklace from its shelter. Tracing my fingers on its thin length chain lithely then to the small padlock pendant. I scanned it for awhile as I found something.
l.mh ♥ l.dh
" how dare you lee donghyuck....... how dare you!!! " I cried miserably, feeling myself started to shake violently. I muttered a small apologies to myself while clasping the necklace gingerly across my chest, didn't want to cause anymore damage. But I already did.
