~SleepWalking~

Part 3.

  As I was on my way home, I thought about everything that happened in the past few minutes. What was that emotion on Oli's face? It was like he was confused, but at the same time confused as if I felt the same way toward him. Like he knew deep down my secret I've been hiding for years, but didn't think it could possibly be true. Shaking my head free if all thoughts, I pull up onto my driveway , and go inside . "MOM, I'm home!" Heading upstairs I hear her call out "DINNER WILL BE READY IN AN HOUR, WASH UP!" Rolling my eyes, I plop down on my California King Bed, and open my laptop. Going to YouTube, I automatically go to one of my favorite songs of all time. Give Me Love, by Ed Sheeran .  This has always been my favorite, since I heard Brea quietly singing it as we were making cookie brownies one day. Putting in the acoustic version, I immediately start singing . "Give me love like her.....cuz lately I've been waking up alone, paint splattered tear drops on my shirt, maybe I should let them go. You know I'll fight my corner, and that tonight I'll call you, after my blood turns into alcohol, no I just wanna hold you. Give a little time to me, or burn this out, we'll play hide and seek to turn
this around, and all I want , is the taste that your lips allow , my my, my my-I give me lo-" TAP TAP" My head quickly snapped to the right as I heard a tapping on my window. Getting up ,I opened the curtain , and saw Oli standing on the tree limb not to far from my room. Looking at him, my blood boiled in my veins all over again from what happened earlier, but at the same time, it swelled with joy to know that he would go through all this and climb up to my window, like we used to when were little. Of COURSE he wasn't going to know that, for all he knew I was still upset with him. "Are you gonna let me in Zoe, or am I going to have to beg?"said Oli, looking at me with those big adorable green puppy eyes. Folding my arms over my chest, I glared him down. "Are you SURE you want to be in an annoying bitch prescenes? Opening my window anyway, I walked over to my bed with a huff. Oli cautiously walked over as I stared at him, taking all of him in. His shaggy brown hair that sometimes falls into his eyes, his tattoos that run from miles along his body, his beautiful green orbs that hold so much to them.Everything, he was completely perfect to me in every way. Sitting on the bed, he gently took my hand and laced our fingers together."Zoei, please. I know that I've said some fucked up things, but they were only out of anger, you know that I would never do or say anything to hurt you purposely. I'm just going through some things at the moment and its really taking a toll on me." Now in any other situation I would've been all over him, smothering him with my sympathy, but what caught my attention was when he said he's been going through some things. Oli and I have always told each other everything, and helped each other with everything, so me not knowing what is going on with him, hurts me deeper than any other crap that has been going on today. Grabbing his chin, I force him to look me in the eye " Oliver Scott Sykes, we've been best friends since preschool, and you can't tell me what's going on with you? You're worrying me with the way you're acting , and I'm slightly FREAKED THE FUCK OUT! Do you not trust me anymore?" That got his attention, he snapped his head up. "Of course I trust you Zoe! I just want you to not be involved with my fuck ups, that's all." By this time, I was sure I was  dropping tears because of the horror on Oil's face. He squeezed my cheeks between his massive hands "Hazel, don't cry love, I'm sorry please don't cry." Hazel was the nickname he gave me in the 7th grade when he first realized "My eyes shined like the graham crackers he ate , and they too are Hazel, LIKE YOUR EYES!" Little nerd he was back then. Heading back into reality, I realized my eyes were closed, and my arms were wrapped around Oli's neck. I felt my lips move in sync with his as we kissed  passionately, and as he bit my lip for entrance, it almost, almost felt that he felt the same thing I feel when I'm around him everyday. Love. As we slowly pulled away, I felt Him caress my cheek, and whisper so softly that I wasn't sure if I heard correctly. "I'm sorry Zoe." Opening my eyes, I seen Oli hop off of my bed, and sprint towards the window. "Oli, OLIVER!"  I chased after him, and grabbed his arm. He harshly snatched it back growling, literally growling, "Don't TOUCH me." Shocked, I let him go  and watched as he quickly tried to make an escape. An escape from me. With one last glance at my "best friend" We made eye contact, and all that I saw was regret swimming in his, while it washed over me. What the fuck? I thought as I grabbed a picture of Oli and I from last years prom, and threw it towards the wall , watching it smash into pieces, just like our friendship. Cry, that's all I could do was cry as I caressed my lips. I feel asleep on my floor with tear stained cheeks, and I didn't even go to dinner that night.