Easy love (R5 + hunter hayes love story) ♥♥♥

Chapter 19

*Next morning*

(Julia's P.o.V)

That morning, i get hp a decide to go to the mall while everyone is asleep just to get my mind off some things thats been going on latley. I brush my teeth and get dressed, I put black lipstick on and put all my piercings in. For my clothes i put my "Black veil brides" t-shirt on with black skinny jeans and black com bat boots. I just get ready to open the door when all of a sudden i feel someone grab my arm. I turn around to see Ross with puffy read eyes. I didnt know why he was crying when all of a sudden it hit me, he didnt know i was goth. And i never told him i had tattoos covered all over my arms either.

Ross: Julia, why r u dressed like that. *he says with his voice cracking*

Me: Ross, i didnt tell u. This is me and i was just covering up so people would actually like me for once. I know my hair is black and scene like, i know i have piercings and i know i have tattoos. This is why i get judged because of how i look.  *i started crying with my make up starting to run*

Ross: You could have just told me and i dont think ur a freak. Just because you have tattoos, piercings and a long jet black scene and the way u dress doesnt make me love you any less. I love you for u, not how u look. I just wish you would have told me the truth instead of tried to hide who you really were. It upsets me how you beleive what people tell u that isnt true. Your beautiful and the most amazing girl iv ever had in my life. I wouldnt wish for anyone else but you. I love you so much. *He says crying through sobs*

I just stood there shocked as ever. I couldnt believe the words that was actually coming out of his mouth and how much he excepts me. I thought if he saw the real me that he would want to leave me. I cant beleive i have the most amazing guy in the world that finally excepts me for me.

Me: Oh my gosh Ross, u really feel that way for me. I thought me showing u what i actually look like would make u want to leave me.  *I said crying and looking into his puffy red eyes*

Ross: Of course i do Julie. Your the most amazing girl i ever met and why would u think i leave u? Wait, do u think i would have thought u were a freak for how u looked?

Me: Kinda *i said with a low tone*

Ross: I dont think your a freak. Wait a minute? ur a heavy metal chick? I think thats awesome, i mean i usually dont listen to that kinda stuff but if thats what u like then i cant stop u. As long as u still love R5 i wont be sad *he giggles*

Me: Yea im a hardcor heavy metal chick and yes i do still love R5. I wouldnt be with u if i didnt. I know this is gunna sound corny but ur the love of my life and always will be and nothing in the world is gunna change that. And when u cry it hurts me deep inside because i know how sentive u are and thats why im afraid of hurting u so much.

Ross: I love you to Julie. As long as ur not a cutter then we should be good right?

Oh my gosh, he doesnt know that i cut either. Should i tell him or should i let him find out, Maybe i should just tell him so he doesnt get anymore mad then he is. Here i go hurting him again. Well here goes nothing.

Me: Umm Ross, i think theres something u should know.

Ross: What is it?

I lift up my sleeves and show him my arm full of cuts that were like from 2 years ago. There were a few fresh one but i dont think they were noticable enough. 

Me: Im sorry Ross *Runs up into the bathroom crying*

 

*10 minutes later*

I hear a knock on my door and figure its Ross cuz hes the only one home with me while everyone else was out doing god knows what.

Ross: Julia, can i plz come in?

Me: Y-yes.

Ross: Julia? R u ok?

After he said that i couldnt help but break down into tears. I put my head in my hands and just let it all out. I was crying so loud i was screaming. I felt Ross sit next to me pulling me into his lap and shhh'ing me tell me its ok while rubbing my back soothingly trying to get me to calm down.

Ross: Shhh calm down julie. Everything is ok.

Me: No its not Ross. Im a cutter *I said crying again*

Ross: I-i know and im not to happy about it but i know we could get through this together. Even if i have to take some time off work. I will do anything just to see u happy again, i dont like seeing u like this.

Me: But Ross, how could u except a girl who cuts?

Ross: What you do in life is not gunna make me think of u any different, like i said i love you for u.

Me: I think i need help.

Ross: No, Julie im not sending u away. It would kill me to much.

Me: But...

Ross: No buts. Im gunna help u.

Me: You would really help me?

Ross: I would do anything for you. Your the best thing thats ever happened to me and i will do anything to see u happy again.

Me: Thank u

Ross: I love u Julie.

Me: I love u to Ross.

We both sit there not saying anything to eachother. My head on his chest and Ross still rubbing my back. Turns out he was crying to because of how sensitive he is. I still cant believe of how sensitive he is. It doesnt bother me its just its so shocking to me and im glad i found a guy thats not afraid to show his emotions infront of his girlfriends. Im soo glad i met him and im so glad hes mine.