ALL Why Don't We

My story

I feel awkward posting all this stuff about myself, but i feel like I need to. 

So this is a story that affects me personally. This is the reason I am scared to talk to boys taller or stronger than me. And this is a factor of many of the reasons I am scared of men in general. I was in the 7th grade and this guy was in 9th grade. And I know this is written badly, I was in a rush, and it was before my advanced writing kicked in. This is also why I lack confidence in myself. The first day I and the high school-er met, I and my friend were watching funny Instagram videos. he came over and said," What's up?" I said," Just watching videos." And so he sat down and watched them with us. then he said, do you guys like truth or dare??? and we said yeah sure why not. but then my friend left. so then it was just him and me. so he said, I dare you to pants me. (AS in pull down his pants and look at his dingaling) and I was like nooooooooo. I didn't want to but he just stood there looking all cute and shit. (And I was stupid enough to fall under his spell.) he said he had to go soon but he just stayed. and then he kept saying, c'mon it's no big deal over and over again. so then he started lying to his dad saying he was playing pool with friends but he was in the room with me. and I was like, I feel bad that you are lying to your dad. and he said, oh it doesn't matter. my dad knows how long pool games are. so then he just stared at me some more. one of the main reasons I didn't want to do it was because there were cameras in the room. so I said, can't I do it tomorrow? he said, I only come here once a week (he was talking about the youth center)(the place I went every day after school). so I said fine. and then I did it. and then he just stood there for another minute or 2 so he could stare at me some more and then he was like oh well I have to go. and then someone who worked there was like, what were y'all doing in here? and he just left and I was like we were playing truth or dare. and she was like and you pantsed him and I said yeah because we made a deal that if he twerked, I would have to pants him. and she was like, and no underwear came off and I was like yup. and then she was like don't do anything you don't want to because the guys in the front could have you kicked out or something. and I was like OK!!! so then the next day, he came back! and I was like, you aren't supposed to be here and he was like, oh I made an agreement with my dad. my mom isn't home until 5:30 so I can come today. so I was like, oh OK. so then we watched scary videos and I was like I'm about to grab one of you. even though I didn't, I think he wanted me too. and then he was like let's play truth or dare again and I was like ok. so then he said let's go into the bathroom so no cameras. and I was like nooooooo. he said cmon. so I went into the bathroom alone (my friend left again) and then he came in. he said, stand still for 30 seconds and he said put your hands up so I can trust you and so I did it, and he kept coming closer and closer and then he started to try and pull my pants down and I was like noooooooooooooooooo. and I ran to the corner of the bathroom and sat down. he was like cmon. think of it as payback for what you did to me. I was like nope. he said cmon it'll be fun. he also said well my hands are sweaty and my heart is racing. that must mean something. I said mine too. he was like, you'll be sexy!!! And he was rubbing my legs and went really close to my area. He slightly grabbed them too. and I just bust out laughing thinking, I already am bitch. and so I said no I'm good. and then he was like at least let me help you up. I groaned and he laughed. and so someone came in and he climbed on the toilet and I was like......... and then our hearts were racing even faster and then I was like I can't let you do it. I'm leaving. and then I left and he left too. then he left and I've been waiting for this Monday ever since. (BECAUSE MY DUMBASS STILL LIKED HIM)