Therapy session recording 8
What connection do you have with Orlando?
The song or the city?
The city.
Orlando is the first place I felt free. After my father got arrested and school was out for the summer, I— just left New York. For a second, just a second, I felt like myself. I felt normal. When I got there, i was gonna start over. I was 14. I made some friends. They were not good people. But i felt like myself around them. We were all living in an abandoned building. We stole food and slept on an old broken down couch.
How many of them?
What?
How many of them were there?
There was 5 of us. We all still went to school. We all stole new clothes. We showered in other people's houses. Hence where we got the new clothes and the food.
Why not steal jewelry or money?
We did, but not often. only when we owed people.
Who were these people?
They never told me. This is the point in time where i met Lucas. Do you know what it's like to get beat with a baseball bat?
No, i don't. Do you?
Yes. It hurts. Horribly. It makes you not feel human anymore. On top of that, have you ever been choked out? Beat half to death because you wanted to have one second of alone time so you lock yourself in a bathroom? Have you ever been raped and there was no one to save you? Have you ever been stabbed? Or had a gun to your head so many times you're not even scared of them anymore?
Why haven't you told anyone?
I just did.
How do i know you're not lying? Or that you imagined it?
I wish i could make shit like this up. Is time up? Cuz I don't wanna talk about it anymore.
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