Remember Me

2. Disappointment

Sitting inside the car right now, I feel nauseous. As the car passes through the neighbourhood I can't stop thinking about my childhood. Times I spend with my friends in Mrs. Donovan's swings. Times I spend running through the whole neighbourhood. Pain washes over me as I realise they are just memories which won't repeat ever again.

Mom threw me a concerned look from the front seat.

"Are you alright Honey?" she asked, probably trying to get me from thinking too much about the place.

"Yeah I'm fine mom. Just can't believe that everything is over."

Ouch. What am I thinking? I shouldn't have said that. That might have hurt dad.

"Nothing is over Ells. You are going to have a wonderful life there." he said, probably to himself.

"Yeah, I hope"

And that was the last conversation we had till we reached the airport.

I fell asleep as soon as we got inside the plane. I didn't have much time to sleep through all these. As soon as I was asleep I dreamed of my new life at Barrow. The view wasn't clear. It was raining and I guess I was at my new school. Everyone threw me a look like I don't belong there and I bumped into one of the students.

"Watch where you walk girl." she spoke as if I look disgusting to her. Am I?

"Sorry... I... I am... Really sorry...." I said with anguish.

I woke up feeling scared? I don't know how I feel. What was that all about. I'm going to regret moving there. I'm sure of it. And why in god's name did I stutter. Ahhh Ella you are overthinking about everything.

It's true. I'm thinking way too much. I took a deep breath and let everything else fall into the hands of fate.

Its 6.00 pm and we've reached Barrow. I can literally hear my heart beating in my ears. I'm too tired to have all these thoughts in my mind right now. I hear thousands of voices around me. I see people hugging each other, tears falling down there cheeks and I wonder to myself? Are those the tears of happiness or the tears of leaving the beloved ones?

As we reach the exit of the airport I could hear harsh sounds outside and I immediately find out what it's about. It's raining. What a great and wonderful welcome. I couldn't be more grateful. But as I get out I breathe in fresh air and as it touches my tongue I taste the sweetness of cold air. Even though I hate to say it I guess Barrow has kind of impressed me. But still, rain is not one of my favourite thing. The rain is too harsh. I can see freshly blossomed trees following the way of wind as the rain hits the leaves. It is really cold out here and my jacket can't protect me from such a strong yet beautiful weather. While I stand there trying to get in the beauty of this place my mom calls me out and I realise that for a moment I forgot about all my worries. I rush towards my mom who is now talking to some man. Well a boy to be exact. He seems 16? He kind of actually looks hot but he certainly doesn't seem to be my type. But how does mom and dad know him. He catches me looking at him and waves at me. I guess it's an instinct, I actually look back and realises that he is actually waving at me. Does people here do that all the time? My dad waves his hand asking me to join him.

"Hey kiddo, this is Steve. Our new neighbour." Dad says. It seems like he can't contain his happiness.

"Hi. Eh you are Ella right?" Steve asks. Wow! Not only is he hot but he has a British accent which really makes him extra hot.

Get a grip Ella or your jaw will drop now...

I somehow find my way back to my chain of thoughts'

My mouth hangs wide open and I could certainly smell awkwardness in the fresh air which seems to suffocate me right now. I stand there dumb as usual trying to find out what the hell is going on here. Why would my neighbour be in an airport and find us at the exact time of our arrival? Is he stalking us?

Mom seeming to somehow understand my thoughts said, "Yes, that's right Steve. This is Ella, our one and only daughter and Ella, Steve has come here to pick us up"

I still have my mouth hanging wide open. The moment I stepped into this place I've been overreacting to everything in front of me.

Steve seems to find that I'm uncomfortable so he saves the rest of the conversation and says, "Well, let's go then. The weather is going to get worse so it'll be better if we get going now."

Somehow I find it both funny and terrifying at the same time. How can the weather get anymore worse? I run after my family who is now entering Steve's car. I easily find out its a BMW. So he's rich. Well I could actually see that in his looks. He looks so classy and modern. He approaches me with a smile which I obviously couldn't return and says

"Here, let me take it."

What is he talking about?

"I'm sorry what?" Somehow he finds it funny and chuckles. Oh wow! How dare he?

"The luggage? Should I put it in the back of the car or are you planning to carry it the whole time?"

"Oh." I feel embarrassed. 'Embarrassed'. I mean I literally look like a kid who lost her candy.

He smiles at me picks up my bag at walk towards the back while I stand in the rain soaking myself to death while failing not to look like an idiot.

"Honey, get in. We are already late" mom calls from the back of the car.

"yeah mom sure." I say with disappointment towards myself.