THE ACADEMY - KNJ✔️

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The morning, I felt awash with regret that I had left so abruptly without telling Namjoon how I felt, so I ran away instead of confronting him.

I will go back later tonight, he's still working as of now, going back too early will defeat the purpose of me leaving .

I texted Jungkook and apologised for leaving, knowing I may have caused him a little distress when he found me gone without a word, maybe he thought I'd ran away or was kidnapped. I felt even worse thinking about Jungkook's reaction, I'm a bad friend.

After taking a shower, I walked to the living room to find my Aunt still clinging to a bottle of alcohol on the couch, snuggled up with her arms firmly around it.

Entering the kitchen I began to toast some bread under the grill, I went to pull out a whole carton of eggs and stopped, looking at the carton with an empty feeling knowing I only used a whole carton when I made breakfast for the boys... I put the eggs back, not feeling so hungry.

Sitting down with my dry toast and cup of tea, I felt overwhelmed with emotions that I couldn't separate, was I sad or am I just still tired? I didn't know how to describe it.

Was I scared to go back and face Namjoon? Maybe I'm scared he doesn't want me anymore, and he's just waiting for our daughters to arrive before he tells me he doesn't love me anymore.

The knock of the door alerts me to a presence at the door, and as I open it Taehyung is staring back at me with his boxy smile.

"Hi"

"Taehyungie, What are you doing here?" I said in a happy yet surprised tone.

"Ah- Hyung sent me to bring you home when you're ready to go" he smiled.

"Is he mad?" I peep at him with a pouty expression.

"No, he's scared, he can't sleep knowing, you're out and about all pregnant without him"

"He should have thought about that before leaving me alone in the house all the time, how did you find me?" I asked.

"Really? Come on Y/N, I'm your best friend" grinning at me. "This place is beautiful," he said motioning his surroundings.

"Come in, have some tea, and we shall discuss my departure" I said then remembering my Aunt asleep on the sofa in a drunken daze. "Actually, let's go for a walk on the beach instead" pushing him back outside.

"How are my nieces doing?" Taehyung asks.

"Still fighting" I wince due to the sound of Taehyung's voice making the babies stir.

"Aigoo, behave for your mother" he pretended to scold, pointing a finger at my tummy.

We strolled along the beach, listening to the waves crashing against the rocks, and smelling the ocean air. Taehyung turned to me and held my hand.

"Tae- do you think he loves me?" I asked.

"I know he does, otherwise why would he have bought a r— umm— I mean of course he does" he stuttered.

"I hope so" I sniffed.

"Come on, it's cold by the sea, let's get you back inside" he says as we then walk back to the beach house.

Taehyung insisted on carrying my bag from the car, putting it from the boot and after driving the long haul back to Namjoon's house.

When we pulled up my nerves were setting in and I felt queasy as my tummy rolled and flopped around.

Upon entering the house, six pairs of eyes stared at me, and I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it, I paced to the staircase headed into my room.

Trying to take deep breaths, through my nose and out of my mouth, I think I'm having an anxiety attack, all that pressure of them looking at me for answers as to why I left.

It wasn't such a big deal but looking at them and how hurt Namjoon looked, that I had ran away, just hit me like a ton of bricks.

A light tapping from the door sounded as I tried to calm myself down but it escalated and I choked on a breath.

Namjoon burst through my door, eyes wide as he witnessed my breathless face, tears streaming down my eyes.

"Breathe Y/N, Breathe" I followed his breathing patterns, taking deep breaths, my anxiety levels were heightened due to my highly emotional pregnant state. "It's ok I've got you" He whispers cradling me in his arms.

I am exhausted, not just from the anxiety but probably from the trip home, I snuggled myself closer to Namjoon, holding on to him weakly.

"Why didn't you tell me, you were at your Aunts house, Cupcake?" He asked in a sweet, calming tone.

"I needed to think, and I knew you'd want me to come back only because I'm pregnant, I feel..— like me being here, it's the only reason" I whispered, laying in his arms with my eyes closed.

"Cupcake, Look at me?" I open my eyes to his gaze. "I love you, and I'm sorry I made you feel like I didn't" he cupped my cheek and planted a kiss on my forehead. "I know I've been really busy these passed few weeks, but the Choi company needed my assistance but now I can spend more time with you"

"No— I'm sorry, I shouldn't have just up and left like that," I answered.

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