THE ACADEMY - KNJ✔️

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It was too warm to sit inside today, I felt huge, stuffy and sweaty, I planted myself under what has become my favourite tree of the garden, swinging lightly against the cool breeze on the swing.

It was peaceful, sitting in absolute silence, most of the boys were out or at work.
It was just Jungkook and I today, he left me alone to waddle about, checking to see where I was from time to time, I could see him eyeing me from the window whilst he was on the phone.

Namjoon hadn't called me at all today and he wouldn't pick up my calls, which was frustrating but strange since he had always been around me at home, hovering over my baby bump constantly, but the past few days he's been coming home late and he would leave really early.

I didn't feel alone, I had my babies and the other guys at times, and my head knew that he was just working, but my heart felt abandoned. It was probably just my damn hormones.

Living in the house with the other boys, we were never completely alone together, every time we would try to be intimate, we would be interrupted or I was too drained. 

"Y/N are you ok?" Jungkook walked down the path to the tree.

"Yeah" I said with a weak smile.

"Just feeling a little bit unwanted, at the moment, Namjoon's working so much and I—" the words caught in my throat, then turned abruptly into a sob.

"Hey, we're all here for you—" He tries to console me, yet interrupted by yet another phone call and he excused himself.

I left the tree swing, and gathered up my thoughts while tracing the path back to the house. I need someone to talk to. That isn't a bloody boy.. and I knew exactly where to go.

I skip up the staircase and go to my room and pack a small bag, just for a couple of days, all I've seen are these walls and I wanted to feel the sea breeze on my face again, so I called ahead to set up my travel plans.

I slipped out of the front door, without saying goodbye to Jungkook, he was busy on the phone, I didn't want to disturb him and I left a text for Namjoon to tell him I'd be away for a couple of days.

"Hello my Sweetcake! Look how big you are, you look so beautiful" My Aunt Juniper beamed.

"Hey Auntie J" I said as she engrossed me in a big hug, then taking my bag inside her beach house.

"Whisky or Vodka?" She asks.

"I can't drink, I'm pregnant" looking at her like she had just laid an egg.

"Not you!, I'm deciding what I want.." She looks at the small bar on the back deck that outlooked onto the beach. "Oh fuck it, Margarita it is!" She flipped her arms in the air.

As we lay on the sun loungers under the parasol umbrella, with our cocktails in hand, a margarita for her, and a fresh virgin strawberry daiquiri for me.

I felt slightly more normal than I had felt in months, to be back here after such a long time, My Aunt Juniper and I talked about the twins, How I felt, everything.

"So that boy in your room, was BH heir huh?" she smirked.

"Yeah" I sighed. "But I chose duty and family," I said.

"How is Park-who-wouldn't-tell-me-Where-you-were- Jimin" She asked.

"He's actually great, living his best life with someone he truly loves, I'm happy for him" I smiled "I mean.. I'm happy but—"

"I think you need to remember you're not just a Kim like your father, all that high society bullshit, you're also a Jung, and Jung women are strong, follow your heart too, decide what you want from now on." She said as she emptied the rest of her glass down her throat.

I knew what I wanted, I wanted my family to be whole, I didn't want to feel ignored or abandoned. I was Namjoon's girlfriend yet I felt more affection from him when I wasn't.

"Do you love him?" She asked whilst pouring herself another drink from a pitcher.

"Of course I do, but I wasn't going to mope around the house waiting for him," I replied.

As the sun was starting to set we both strolled back inside the house to where I had left my bags and took my phone in my hand.. shit this wasn't good.

112 missed calls from Namjoon, 102
From Jimin, 89 from Jungkook, and many many more... I'm in trouble, I didn't even want to look at the messages.

NJ -
I'M GOING OUT OF
MY MIND RN!
WHERE ARE YOU!

That was the most recent message, I couldn't even scroll up to see what the others had said, I felt guilty for not telling him where I was, but I needed a break.

Y/N -
I'm sorry, I'm perfectly safe,
I promise I'll be back.

NJ -
Where are you..?

Y/N - Safe,
I'm just taking a break away.

NJ: Why won't you
tell me where you are?

Y/N: I just
need a little time.

NJ: Please come back
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I tear slipped out of my eye, I knew that if I told him where I was he would probably travel all the way here to get me, maybe he would miss me like I missed him, knowing I'm the one who is away, he might understand how I feel.

I got comfortable in my Aunts spare room that I would use on most summer vacations.

*PINGGG*

Another text from Namjoon

NJ -
I love you.
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