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Well thanks for asking, i mean were should i start, from the moment Billie's body sat on mine, i would say its amazing, No matter how many girls ive been with nothing ever felt the way Billie made me feel this weekend, No, I didnt turn her lesbian But you can tell shes being more open towards girls cause of me, shes been more into sexuality than ive ever been which is a good sign...right?
Spring break has started and will last for three weeks so my Mom's let me spend my time with Billie on tour, my sex life as been...interesting, its like when Billie was horny, she meant it and nothing would stop her from getting what she want
On this tour ive met Sabrina Carpenter..shes a sweet girl and i can tell shes interested but I only have eyes on Billie and I hope Billie feels the same way towards me, I mean she wrote a song about me and Ive been helping her of course so I have to mean something to her...right-
"hey stranger" I look up from my journal and see sabrina, I smile and wave to her "Hey dude" i say as she sits next to me "wheres Bil?" I ask as she sighs softly, I can tell she was kinda jealous of me and Billie's relationship but i honestly didnt care to be honest, besides her having a crush on me, I would say that she has been my only relatable friend on the this tour to be honest but thats the only way i see her...a good friend, nothing more, Nothing less "Hey I have to tell you something"
"Yeah whats up?" I say already expecting something protaining to her liking me "I just wanted to tell you that I really like you and i know you and billie-" she gets cut off by the love of my whole fucking life walking on the bus "Billie whaAAaaA" I laugh and get up and throw my journal on sabrina's life and Billie bites her lip ans whispers something in my ear and our head turns to Sabrina "Hey um can we talk later...me and billie need the bus for like a good.." I look up thinking "Hour and a half" She laughs and Sabrina glares at us "All shes gonna do is fuck you and leave you clueless as to what you guys are when your nothing but fuck buddies, I actually like you but you dont see that" She throws my book and walks out
Billie looks at me "Do you like her or something" She asks me and I shake my head "I see her as a friend" Billie nods and kisses my and pushes my on the bed
What Sabrina said had me thinking...what if she was right about the whole situation, yeah billi was trying to figure herself out but didnt she actually like me
After me and Billie had sex, I laid on the bed, listening to Frank Ocean as Billie slept next to me, Where would me and Billie be after spring break is over, Im just an average highschool girl and shes this big worldwide singer...Im actually starting to think that im just her little experiment, Ive never heard Billie say that she liked me as much as I told her... So Billie what the fuck are we cause im confused, I sigh and shake my head and turn away and hug myself
im actually doing horrible
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im gonna turn you lesbian ;; billie eilish
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