im gonna turn you lesbian ;; billie eilish

chapter 11 ;; life changes

As soon as I go back to school for the last week before summer I notice a lot of people staring but tbh I'm not in the mood

Last night me and Sabrina got into a huge argument about me choosing who I want to be with

So I chose Billie

I honestly think she knew I was gonna choose Billie

Billie makes me feel loved and wanted

Yes we been through somethings but atleast she's trying

Lately she's been sending flowers and stuff and when she has time off she comes and visit and take me places

But sadly now that I'm into the public eye my mom said for my senior year she's taking me out of school and I'm gonna start online classes

I sigh and sit at the
Lunch table and everyone continue to stare but some people were laughing and the rest looked like they felt bad

I frown in confusion but shrug it off

I soon go on Instagram to see a picture of Billie and Sabrina kissing and saying they were in a relationship

I widen my eyes and run out the Cafe and out the school

My hands starts shaking and I start tearing up but I soon see my mom and she runs and hugs me

The next day

My mom says it was a "Mother's instinct" that something happened but I know she just saw the video and knew what I'll do

I stare at the ceiling and sighs

Back at stage one

Sabrina and Billie have been blowing up my phone, my mom checked them and I can tell by her face it wasn't good and a whole bunch of excuses

I look at my posters and sigh

I've been so stuck on a girl who doesn't want me

I sigh and look around at all the pictures of me and billie and some of me and Sabrina and then some Billie posters

Laugh to myself and grab a trash bag and rip down the
Posters and pictures

And put some music on and dance around and then start to cry but then laugh at myself for crying and then puts up new posters and my huge pride flag

And pictures of my Mom's

I look around and look at my phone that was blowing up and I sigh and blocked both of them and bites my lip softly and dance again

My Mom's were looking at me as if I was crazy while standing in my door way and I look at them and smile

One month later

I have a girlfriend

She's really pretty and moved here from Oregon

Her name is Madeline

She has red hair and freckles and blue eyes

She and I have been spending a lot of time together

Tonight she's sleeping over and other than that I just been happy

Madeline and I lay on my bed

She snaps pictures on her Polaroid of me and I soon hear the door bell and I go and open it just to see Billie

"hey.."