Unsaid Thoughts

Sorry

Incase you didn't know
You're still special for me
I got jealous to your friends
Miss you when you're not around
Waiting for your messages

I miss the thought of you by my side
Helping me out when I needed someone
Stayed by my side when I had no one
Chose to look funny and stupid
Just to make me smile

I was lucky to have you
But I push you away
Now all that was left is regret
A regret that will continue to grow
I'm sorry, I was stupid and immature

I know I shouldn't feel that way
No, I should REALLY not feel that way
I just can't, it's too complicated
To continue having that feeling

I'm scared to express my thoughts
To know different perspectives
Now I'm here, writing this nonsense poem
Expressing the things I couldn't say