Unsaid Thoughts

How?

How can I be happy,
If I'm a burden.
How can I even love myself,
If you're treating me like a trash.

How can I find my worth
If in the first place, I don't have it.
How can I end this pain,
If the only option is to give up myself.

How can I lose myself ,
Just to be strong infront of you?
How to fcking end this pain,
If I know it will hurt u.

You're the one who judge so easily,
Without knowing the reason
Without explanation.

Your thoughts still haunts me,
the one who gives me strength
and the reason I want to give up.

Still want to understand you
But so tired of respecting you.
Those are things I want to do,
But I can't.