Savior

Truth, Pain, and Loss

I wake up to a light tug on the blanket. I sit up and see Sara waving at me to get out of bed. I look over and check the clock to see that it's 8pm. Me and Ethan have been sleeping all day.

"What?" I whisper shouted, rubbing my eyes, trying to wake myself up.

"Come here, it's important!" She shouted back impatiently.

I untangle myself from Ethan's grasp and he moves slightly and lets out a light snore. He's so cute when he sleeps. It makes me not want to get out of bed. But whatever Sara wants to tell me must be important if she came into my room and woke me up.

I follow her to her room and she checks the hall once before shutting the door.

"I overheard The Boss on the phone. Your name came up so I stopped and listened by the door. All I heard him say was that he was going to take you out. Before I could listen to the rest, Sam caught me listening by the door." she said with worried eyes. She looked like she was about to cry.

"I wonder what he meant by that." I whispered looking down. My vision began to blur and my chest started rising and falling rapidly. "Sara, we had sex. He held me, talked to me. Why would he take me out if he did all that? He said he wanted me. He did want me right?" I asked more to myself than to her.

"You slept with him!?" She asked, lightly slapping my arm. "Why? Did he force you? Did you want it?"

"I don't know why I did, he asked if he could kiss me and it went from there. But Sara, he asked me. He told me about his past. He told me about him. I understand him so much better now. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy for thinking he likes me. Or maybe he's being sincere about it.

"Well I hope by 'take you out' he meant to dinner," she said chuckling. She pulled me into a hug and gently rubbed my back. I let myself relax under her touch. She has the warmest hugs. They remind me of my mother's hugs. I miss getting those hugs that were so deep and pure they instantly washed all my worries away. She pulls back and looks at me with a smile on her face and says, "Come, let me take you back to your room, if Sam catches you in here then we're both in trouble."

I nod and she leads me back to my room. When I open the bedroom door Ethan is sitting on the end of my bed looking at me.

"Why is it that you always disappear on me?" he asked with his eyebrows furrowed.

"I don't mean to," I say truthfully. I stand in the middle of the room with my hands intertwined and my fingers are meddling with one another. I look up at him and catch his eyes.

He holds his hands out for me to grab and I smile lightly and walk to him tangling my fingers with his. He pulls me down so I'm sitting on his lap, he drops my hand and reaches towards my face. When he touches my face I flinch slightly and pain flashes in his eyes.

"I won't hurt you baby, I promise." he says looking down at my lips.

"Okay." I reply looking down at his lips.

This time, I make the first move. I smash my lips down on his and wrap my hands around his neck, pulling him closer to me so I can deepen the kiss. I wanted him to touch me. I needed it. I don't know what has gotten into me these past couple days but I'm getting my confidence back and my courage. I'm doing things I usually wouldn't do. Especially in my situation. Why am I acting like this?

We break apart to breathe and he grabs my face in his palms and looks at me with so many emotions running through his eyes. As he's leaning back in to kiss me we hear loud stomps coming up the stairs. He pulls back and drops his hands. I look at him and hes clenching his jaw.

"Of course he interrupts." he hisses backing away from me.

I go to ask him what he meant, but before I can get the words out, the bedroom door opens and Andrew walks through the door. He looks at Ethan then me, then back to Ethan and raises an eyebrow.