隐蔽 [clandestine] | yizhan

二

Was he nervous? Very.

His Uber dropped him off right in front of the cafe. Heart beating faster while his hand getting more sweaty. Noticing a few stares, he quickly walked in.

A waiter stopped him, "Sir, do you have any reservation?" Zhan, "I'm here with Wang Yi Bo" and immediately the waiter's face changed. He looked flustered and quickly guided Zhan to the private room. It seemed like the waiter finally recognized Zhan.

Zhan wore light blue jeans with a Gucci X Disney t-shirt and a black moleskin jacket with a cap and mask to cover his identity. Walking into the room that was booked for him and Yibo. He saw that Yibo was already sitting and drinking a cup of coffee slowly while scrolling through his phone.

He cleared his throat as he came in and sat across him. Yibo quickly put his phone down and looked at the person in front of him with care. Zhan crossed his legs,

"Hello, Yi Bo"

"Zhan-ge" It almost sounded chocked.

"What was it that you wanted to talk about?"

Yibo sighed before answering "Zhan-ge are you okay?" He was taken back with his question. With eyes a little widened, he replied "I'm fine" and continued to look down, playing swords with his two fingers.

"Your eyes, it's bad" Zhan was purely confused. His eyes are bad as in he has ugly eyes? He looked at Yibo confused waiting for an explanation from the younger. "Your eyebags are bad, have you not been sleeping properly?" And that's when it hit him, he didn't wear any make-up covering his terrible eyebags.

"It's nothing" Zhan tried changing the topic but he knew how persistent Yibo was "Ge, it's not!" Yibo raised his voice a little making Zhan feeling a little irritated with him. "What did you want to talk about?" Zhan sounding a little harsh. "Ge, you can tell me," Yibo said again wanting Zhan to tell him why he looked so tired, so thin, so lifeless.

Zhan was usually a calm and collected person but these 3 days had wrecked him. "Yibo, if you're not willing to tell me I'm leaving" Zhan got up to leave but his heart telling the opposite. He still took courage and left the place disappointed as Yibo did not stop him. He chuckled to himself thinking, as if he would stop me.

He decided to walk even though his apartment was only a few kilometers away. Walking past all these people, he knew a few recognized him yet he still walked ignoring them. His eyes getting blurry as tears clouded. He tried blinking them away but it was no use.

Why was he crying? Why did he feel so pathetic? After a while, he walked alone through the almost empty streets. He sat at a bench and laid his head back, looking at the stars. Did he deserve all of this? Why did he choose this path if he could not handle it? Why did he fall in love?

Thoughts began pouring into his mind not noticing the rain was starting to pour. Little droplets on his cap. He was going to get soaked but he did not mind. He deserved this. He was brought out of his thoughts when he heard a car honk. Looking ahead, he saw Yibo's car.

Great, he got up leaving the bench and ignoring the car walking back to his apartment. The car perfectly parked when he realized that Yibo was going to know where he lived so he brought himself to walk towards the car.

Seeing his reflection on the car window made him feel so low. The window rolled down, showing Yibo's pained expression. "Ge, let me drive you home" Zhan chuckled at rolled his eyes "Ya, it's okay! Hahaha" but this did not convince Yibo.

He got out of the car, himself getting wet and took Zhan's hand and pulled him to the passenger seat. Zhan struggled to get himself out of Yibo's grip. He was weak, Yibo who did not use full strength felt how fragile Xiao Zhan was.

After putting the seat belt on Zhan, he quickly jogged back to the driver seat. They both sat in silence with the faint scent of vanilla and soft rap music. Zhan broke the silence "What is up with you?" Yibo huffed "Ge, I am sorry if you don't want to say anything. But ge, I care about you and I'm not willing to let you go". Zhan looked at him "What are you trying-", he was interrupted by a soft lips on his.

Slowly both lips danced making Yibo smile during the kiss and Zhan could feel it. Zhan broke the kiss and looked at Yibo. "I like you Zhan-ge" those three words that Zhan kept in his heart without telling the younger as he did not want to ruin the younger's career. Without him realizing, he was smiling.

"Gege, do you feel the same way?" Zhan could only nod shyly. His cheeks were burning bright crimson red. Yibo smiled showing his teeth, eyes almost disappearing. The man who he fell in love at first sight.

Yibo was known as a cold guy. Everyone knew about it, he doesn't care if you're a girl or a guy, he would just speak his mind. But only a few know that he was just protecting himself. When he first saw Xiao Zhan, he would not admit it on that day but today he would. Xiao Zhan was the most beautiful being that he had ever seen. Neglecting his feelings for the first few days, to only know that Xiao Zhan had a heart of gold made him fall even deeper despite the age gap.

Yibo knew the consequences but he could not help himself. The thought of Zhan being friendly with another aside him made his blood boil. He wanted Zhan all to himself. Without him noticing, he slowly opened up to Xiao Zhan. Smiling more often around Zhan, being more comfortable with Zhan.

No one else made him feel like this. Not even his members or his brothers from DayDayUp (天天向上). On the last day of the shoot, he realized he had completely fallen in love with Xiao Zhan, his gege. But Xiao Zhan went MIA [Missing In Action] for three days after the shoot. Making Yibo's heartache. He tried calling the older till he could not count.

He was obsessed, as Zhan was his only source of pure happiness. He definitely would not lose him no matter what. When Zhan picked up his call, only he knew how fast his heart was beating for the other. When Zhan left him in the cafe, only he knew the pain, feeling like Zhan had stabbed his heart that was beating for him and only him.

To know the other felt the same way as he does he was happy. His happiness simply could not be put into words. Looking at the man in front of him being so shy and embarrassed, he wanted to kiss him all day and protect him. Well, of course, he did not forget one thing.

Why was Zhan missing for the past three days? His smile immediately disappeared when the thought appeared. He held Zhan's arm carefully and caressed it. "Ge?" he softly spoke. The older man in front of him knew what he wanted to ask. "Yibo, I needed time to myself. I'm sorry for disappearing just like that."

Yibo nodded. A sign of acknowledgment on the older's statement.