𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 ☽

✯ chapter VIII

eleanora's pov;

   my legs started to shake on my way into crema, as usual for this time of the day the vendors started to pack up shop and leave the square. i made my way into the chemist and picked up the medication i didn't need that my mother had ordered for me, "addio" i called as i left the shop and made my way back to my bike i'd parked in one of the alleyways off from the square.

   was antonio really here? and if he was did i actually want to see him? i had a million questions running through my head but the main one was, why would my father hide it? if it was elio that had been sent a letter he would of been given it straight away.

   i buried my head into oliver's shirt and took in the smell that lingered on it, the shirt than laid on his skin now lay on mine. this is the closest i have felt to him, next i want not his shirt on my skin. but his skin on mine, intimidate or affectionate, i just want him.

   i neared the alleyway and stood next to my bike was an all too familiar face, i don't know what i expected but seeing him brought the sick feeling back up.

   "mi amor, you're here" antonio pulled me close to him as my head lay on his chest, i thought it best to play nice even through right now i wanted to scream and punch him, out of anger and possibly fear, he lowered his head and whispered into my ear, "have you missed me?"

   "si, it is nice to see you but mamma will be wondering why i am taking so long, i came to pick up some pills" i smiled at him and went to grab my bike but he stood in front of me, "if you wouldn't mind" i gently tried to push past him but he wouldn't budge.

   "why don't we go out?" he asked and wrapped his arm around me, bringing me out into the square which brought some relief as the moonlight didn't mask us from the outside world.

   "i really need to get home" he turned me towards him and laid his hands on my hips, "bebé, i just want to be with you? i want to catch up. how is the new intern, he's not as good as me no?"

   "no, he's better" i turned to see where the voice was coming from as oliver stood with my bike in his hands, "let her go, please sir. her mother sent me to get her" he tightened his grip on me and held me in front of him.

   "oliver i'm fine, go home" i smiled and turned to antonio, "i need to go, but it was lovely seeing you" he gently let me go as i waved and took my bike off of the american.

   "i'll come and see you tomorrow" he called after us and before i could say anything he walked away.

   we rode in silence, i wanted to thank him for coming but shout at him for leaving my brother. "well, aren't you going to say something?" he asked and stopped suddenly.

   "what do you want me to say?" i stopped and got off my bike, "thank you? i never asked you to come for me oli, i was perfectly fine"

   "why won't you let anyone help you elea?"

   "because i don't need anyone's help! i am perfectly fine on my own" i shouted as he neared me, "oliver i don't need you"

   "is that why you love me?"

   "what?" my voice trembled.

   "i heard you and elio talking" he came closer and took my hands into his, "he kissed me and i don't know what to do elea, i love the both of you"

   "i'm not going to ask you to chose because that would be wrong of me" i told him simply, i wrapped my arms around him and looked up at the blue eyed american boy.

   he looked down at me and almost hesitated, he brought his lips down to mine and as they touched sparks flew around my body and adrenaline ran through my veins. he pulled away slowly and that was all it was a kiss, a innocent kiss.

  i backed away slowly, "no, it's not fair"

"i know" he looked at the floor before picking up his bike and leaving me in the middle of the road. as i watched him bike into the darkness, i knew what i had to do.