Love, Teddy

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Cass,

 I would love more than anything to come and see you. I guess I should tell you before you misunderstand. Please don’t be mad at me for not telling you before.

   Cass, my cancer is back. I guess its been there a long time and I didn’t know. I’m not all that smart with this stuff so I don’t know how bad it is, I just know the doctors don’t think they can get rid of it. I’ve been in the hospital awhile. Jeff is helping write this letter because I’m too tired. At least everything will be spelled right.

   I’m not trying to abandon you.

   Please don’t get angry again. You’re much prettier when you’re happy. And don’t tell Josh. I don’t want him to be upset. If he does need to know, just tell him that Jesus invited me to stay at his place. That’s what my uncle told me when my dad died and it made me feel better.

   But I might be okay. They just don’t know yet.

   Thank you for always writing me. I hung all your letters on the wall behind my hospital bed with Josh’s picture that he painted in the middle. The picture of you with your purple hair is by my lamp. I get to see it all the time. I try not to think of plums when I see it cause I don’t like plums much.

   You’re my best friend, Cass. You always have been. Thank you.

 Love,

   Teddy

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Teddy,

 

  I don’t know what to say. I wish you would have told me but I understand why you didn’t.

 

   I kept all your letters too. They’re in the drawer beside my bed. I read each of them every night before I go to sleep. Josh makes me read them to him too. I didn’t read him the last one though.

 

  I would give you my number to call me but we don’t have a phone right now. I can’t pay for it. What’s your number in the hospital and I’ll call you from the pay phones?

 

   I still have so much to say . I need to see you, Teddy. I’ll work something out. But in case I don’t get to tell you in person, you’ve always been my greatest friend too. I’ve never liked anyone else as much as you because no one bothered to try and understand me.

 

   You’ll be okay. I know you will. I promise.

 

 Love,

 

   Cassandra