Female Alpha

Chapter 12

The sun was starting to set when Derek came to talk to me, something about getting to know each other a little better, being mates and all. To be honest I was a little curious about Derek as a person and not just my mate. Being mates didn't mean that you actually knew anything about the other person it was the matebond making you feel that way.

" So how are you feeling about being around the pack, Emily?" Derek asked me right off the bat. I wasn't expecting him to be that straightforward, I was kind of looking forward to him beating around the bush flustered.

" I don't really know actually. It's been so long since I was spending time around people, but it is kind of nice sometimes. Especially Tyler is funny guy , but it is not like I feel comfortable around everyone." I answered with suprising honesty, maybe that was another effect of being mates with him.

"Yeah, sorry about what happened with Taylor. He isn't a bad guy honestly but he has his grudges towards rogues, as do I. We have lost many pack members because of rogue attacks in the past, my mother included." Derek said with sadness filling his eyes. So his parents also died in a rogue attack, I didn't ask about his father since mates died usually little after the loss of the other, even if not they wouldn't be the same as before.

" How old were you back then?" I asked with hesitation, not knowing if I should be asking this at all. After all I knew I could bring back painful memories by doing so.

" I was sixteen when they died making me inherit the Alpha position.I didn't know what I was doing back then at all, since it had been only a year that my father started to teach me about pack duties. I had thought it would come naturally as an Alpha, but it didn't causing me to be a mess really." He told me with a sardonic chuckle, no doubt aimed at himself. I was starting to understand him a little and considered if I could trust him enough to open up a bit.

" My whole pack was slaughtered by rogues, and after I had escaped alone I shifted for the first time. I was eight years old at that time, meaning I was scared out of my mind." I decided to tell him, my voice cracking a little. I couldn't look up at Derek's face fearing deep inside that he would show disdain at my weakness. I kept staring at my hands doubtful of his lack of response.

" I'm sorry." He said while sighing sadly. I looked up, startled at his apology.What was he apologizing for? I was just telling him this because he shared his past first.

" What are you apologizing for?" I asked him, not understanding his train of thought at the least.

" For bringing up the past and painful memories. I shouldn't have brought up such a dark topic in the first place. My intention was to get to know you, not to make you sad." He answered looking at me regretfully. I smiled a little at his straightforwardness. It was my first time in a long while smiling like this, carefree. 

"What should we talk about then, to get to know each other?" I asked feeling a bit mischievous. This was a nice feeling, being worryfree and playing around.

"I don't know, our favorite colors or something among those lines." He answered looking akward. I giggled at his akwardness, suprised that an Alpha could act like this too. 

" My favorite color is blue ." I told him truthfully since I had always liked blue color the most. " What about yours?" I threw the question back at him.

"I haven't really ever thought about it, but if I had to choose it'd propably be green. Like forest green, not like bright green." He answered after thinking about it for a while. Green,that color somehow suits him well.

We kept talking like this throwing questions back and forth for the rest of the night. Getting to know him really made me more comfortable and I felt like I could trust him a little, maybe it wasn't so bad having a mate. While the worries about the rogues didn't disappear but at least I felt a bit more at ease thanks to him. I went to sleep that night with no dread of what the future would hold.