Until The Sunrise

Delusional Dreams

They accuse me of having delusional dreams...

But I still have those dreams, I'm still trying to chase those dreams... 

I have hope... 

I have hope for the day... the day that those dreams will have a date next to them... the day that those dreams will become a goal, and ultimately... 

become real.

My body falls on the snow... covering the white floor. The sun is above me, with a clear blue sky. I'm facing down, tasting the snowflakes in my mouth. The aftermath of what happened in the cave still lingers in my body, I'm trying to catch my breath. Every second outside of that cave is a relief.

I feel the goosebumps all over my body, fading with the cold. I start to recover myself while looking at my surroundings, to figure out where I am at. 

In front of me, a very dense white fog, besides me, two gigantic walls, two walls that are united behind making a half-circle. The stones are grey with some parts covered in snow, but there is something that is capturing my attention... intense and gleamy blue ice patches shine strongly in some parts of the rocks. It is so intense that you could see them shining blue despite the light of the sun.

I'm confused about the blue ice... but I notice it in several places in this weird mountain. Where am I at? I slowly keep turning around until I face the front again... the fog is receding, as if it wanted to show me far beyond. The snows stop not too far away from me, showing the blue ice, and in the middle of a deep and long deserted abyss of ice... three gigantic ice pillars. 

Their height is huge, but two of the pillars look like a joke in comparison to the one right in front of me... it is enormous, and very far behind those two other pillars. The top of a gigantic white mountain was appearing, and many many other slowly start to appear, much smaller and far away... but these mountains didn't look like that they started from there... It looks like the mountains began far away beneath my eyes... Is the place where I am at... flouting? No, it's totally impossible... but now I'm questioning myself with what is really possible and impossible... My feelings of these last moments, a wall falling on me, crossing a door to fall on a never seen before place seem pretty impossible to me... so is this impossible? Is anything impossible?

Who dictates what is and what is not possible?

At the very top of the biggest pillar, an Ice castle rests, shining with the same blue of the entire ice place. Big walls and towers, I can feel the beauty of that place from far away in the distance. It's far away in the sky but... it feels close at the same time... I feel the need to go, I feel the need to get there, I feel the desire of reaching the castle of the sky.

I start walking through the deserted abyss of ice until I reach the pillar... I'd like to say that it is my pillar... I walk around in search of a quick way up, or stairs, or any way to reach the skies. Nothing, no easy way up. A cold breeze warms the place, my heart desires the top of the world, the eternity of my statue. Break me down into pieces if you feel the need, but I will do whatever it takes, take me to the castle of the sky.

I'm no one down here in this dense abyss of unconsciousness, but I love how the adrenaline flowing through my veins feels. I was born for this, I feel the same color of the castle reflected in my white eyes. My eyes are blue, I was born for this, my dreams live in the eternity, they want to take me to the top. 

I feel like breaking the chains that kept me in this world, I'm not part of this world. The sky shines on top of me, there are comets on the sky, making the world full of colors despite the adversity they cause. I hold onto a little ice rock sticking from the ice pillar, and push myself up to grab another, and another one after that one, as if it was a climbing wall.