Family Est. 1981 (Rebel Sixx / Mick Mars)

Suffocated.

This chapter marks nine months Rebel has been pregnant. This is the fifth anniversary of motley Crue being formed and Rebel knowing Vince, Tommy & Mick.  She is 20 now! The second part of the chapter will show her birthday.

The guys are finishing up the last bit of the tour with Ozzy. They only have two shows left!

Both Rebel & Nikki will be working on a song. (Separately) But it will actually end up being the same song. (Great minds think alike) They will put together what they did and make one full song. (But that won't happen for a long time) The song will end up being a Sixx A.M song.

(January 14th 1985.) 

Since Tommy's wedding things between Nikki and everyone else has been tense. He only talks to the others when he has to. He stays locked in his hotel rooms, or the back of the tour bus.

They were riding in the bus, on the way to the last city of the tour. They had two shows left before Bark at the Moon was officially finished.  Mick couldn't wait to be home. He missed his girls and was worried about his wife, not only because now she's nine months pregnant with there child, but because she knew how bad Nikki had become- Nikki, Mick wanted to beat some sense into the punk for not only screwing his life up, but also hurting Rebel like he has.

Tommy was working away on something at the booth, Vince was sitting on the couch and Mick was laying on his small bunk. Just trying to get some rest before the show. Nikki was locked up in the bathroom, not wanting to hear anything the guys had to say.

Vince sighed and went to see what Tommy was doing. "What's up man?" Tommy grinned, looking from his sketches to the singer. " I've been seeing this thing man, like I can't get it out of my head. So I thought why not work on it. I want to find a way to make it work!" Vince blinked. "What's it ?" 

"Okay picture this! When I have my drum solo, like the drums go up in the air and start spinning and moving high above the fans! - Like a drum roller coaster!" Tommy said with energy and a happy smile. "Are you on heroin to? Cause that could never happen." Vince said making a face. "It will happen man! It will work and be epic! Trust me alright? Like have you noticed for drum solos people go to the bathroom or whatever at concerts? I want to blow the fans away, where they can't look away, and my idea will do that! Trust me Vinnie!" Vince smirked standing. "Alright man, but if you get that then I want a ferris wheel  and- Oh Mick would want one of the carousel  with enough pony's for his daughters, and Nikki would-."

Tommy rolled his eyes."Shut up Vince, it will really happen!" Vince snickered when the drummer pushed on him. "Okay." Vince said laughing at the face Tommy was making. "Would you two idiots shut up!" Mick screamed from his bunk.

Nikki flinched sitting on the small bathroom floor. Scribbling his unfocussed ideas down. He was hardly able to make out what he was writing in his messy hand writing.

I was suffocated where I stand, but I'm just the shadow of a man. Sometimes adrenaline is the only way that we survived. I'm just a dreadful vampire, sitting on my crumbling empire. you can't have my child if your pregnant with me. Sometimes the undertow feels like the tide. I dissolved and melt and crack and I'm the one that wont come back. You can't live if your suffocating. You only die!

Nikki sighed, coming down from his high. He felt sick and just wanted to get the songs finished for the album they'd have to work on once they got home. Every time he closed his eyes he saw Rebel's hurt expression when she realized what he'd become. He hated himself even more for putting her through everything he had.