ARE YOU REALLY INTO ME?

KABANATA 1

"Im tired and i don't know what to do na" i looked at him "Have you been in love to someone? Someone who's not really into you"

His jaw clenched like he didn't like what he heard from me "Not yet and i don't believe in love"

"Alam mo pat, napaka gago mo talaga noh, im just asking lang naman bakit ang seryoso mo na"

"Then wag mo akong tanungin, ill go na may training pa ako" 

Should i confess again? Okay i don't have choice.

He packed his things "Pat, stop being like that naman oh, you don't have any idea how much i like you" i cried

"please stop being cold to me, i don't know kung anong meron sa atin pero ang sakit pat"

His lips parted at my response " Ely, i told you i can't like you, i don't believe in love"

"Ha" i smiled bitterly. Its been 3 years since i met him, this is not my first time na mag confessed ako sa kanya but ang sakit

"Don't be, alam ko naman di mo talaga ako bet, sino naman ako. Di ako famous kagaya nila, di ako kasing ganda diba?" I asked him

"No don't be like that, you're pretty just the way you are but i think di talaga pwedi" he was breathing deeply "You should go home now, its kinda late na"

"Yes, thank you for your concern. Take care" I said before i stood up and leave.

Im just tired of being like this. Alam ko naman worth ko pero bakit di ko kaya e let go yung taong hindi naman naging akin? Ang tanga mo talaga ely, 19 kana dapat wag na puro pat.

Patrick Sy was one year older than me, but ka batch kami. I never thought na magka gusto ako sa kanya pero ang life talaga, di mo control love life mo.

"Im home" i shouted

"Oh darling, nandito kana pala how's school ba?" Mom asked

"Good, im just tired"

"Why somethings wrong? "Nope mom, i think i just need a rest" i looked at her and smiled

Pat calling

"What" i asked "I just wanna say that, dont overthink about what happened awhile ago and sleep well"

"Okay???" I respond "see you tomorrow" gosh ano ba talaga plano mo sa akin pat nakagago na

Its been 3 years, i met him sa gym sa school namin. Sounds cliche but i think na love at first sight ako sa kanya

I opened my drawer and saw our first picture together, yung day na my team won as 1st place sa volleyball and I'm the team captain and siya naman team captain sa basketball

At that moment, ang cold niya talaga pero months passed he change, he smiled at me na pero sometimes naging cold naman

I looked at the window and sighed, someday pat, i will make you believe in love.