Saved by a Shelby {Arthur Shelby fanfiction}

Nine

It had been three weeks. Lillian and Arthur had lost the baby. Lillian had lost to much blood due to being shot. Things were tense between them. Lillian blamed Arthur for not being there and Arthur had been withdrawn.

He was focusing more and more on his boxing and his fighting. Arthur walked into his and lillians bedroom. He knew that they slept in the same bed but they hardly talked, he missed how they use to be, he missed how they use to be all over each other and how they couldn't even look at each other.

Arthur looked to Lilian as she lay in bed

"I've had enough of this Lillian ,it's been three weeks and I know that you lost our baby, I fucking know but you can't lie in bed all day every day, it's not healthy and I'm fucking worried about you" he said as she looked to him for a moment. She sat up and glared

"don't you dare just tell me to get over it, I lost the baby. Thirty eight hours, that's how long I knew. I knew I wanted that baby. I know I was pregnant and then it was gone, you knew for thirty two hours as I couldn't tell you. So why aren't you angry, why aren't you blaming me like I'm fucking blaming you" she yelled as she went to hit him.

He grabbed her wrist and pinned her to the bed so that he was on top of her

"because it wasn't your fucking fault. I should of been here" he said as they looked to each other. She had tears in her eyes

"why wouldn't you here"

"because I am an idiot" he said as he kissed her forehead. They lay there for a moment before he rolled over so that he was lying next to her. They lay looking at each other for a moment

"I should of been here" Arthur said

"you should, I needed you and you weren't there" Lillian said as Arthur nodded. Arthur knew he and Lillian were going through a lot and he knew he blamed himself for being in London and not being the one with Lillian as she lost their baby

***

Arthur stood in the betting shop as Polly walked in as everyone cheered for her

"what the bloody hell is going on" Polly asked as she saw tommy and frowned

"when did you get back"

"I didn't want to kiss your birthday, pol" tommy said "how do you know is my birthday. Nobody ever knows"

"this year it's different, Finn, John, Arthur bring the car around we are going to take Polly to unwrap her birthday present" tommy said. Arthur went to walk out as Sierra grabbed his arm and sent him a look. He looked to her and sighed

"don't fucking look at me like that" he said

"like what"

"that chambers sister look. Have you seen your sister she won't even talk to me, I know I wasn't there but I should of been" Arthur said as Sierra looked to him and smiled

"none of it is your fault Arthur, you didn't shot lily, that's why she lost the baby. She won't even see me and I'm her sister, even if she is pushing you away she still wants you, she's letting you sleep in the bed isn't she? That's saying something" Sierra said as Arthur looked to her and smiled

"I just want to but it right, I need to talk to tommy" Arthur said. He had an idea, an idea for his and lilians future.

***

Arthur got home and frowned as she sat Lillian. She was sitting by the fire. She had a bottle of whiskey on the table and his gun. He looked to her and frowned

"what the fuck do you think that you are doing" he asked as he walked over and grabbed the gun off of the tale

"fuck off arthur"