A Different Me

On the brink

Trinity
I stayed all night with Kane not even getting a lick of sleep. Talking to my mother till five in the morning explaining what was going on was how I spent most of the night. She was in a rush to get down to me but I explained it wasn't necessary. The doctors liked how he was progressing and slowly started giving him less pain meds. It still bothered me not knowing why he was even here in the first place. I didn't have the courage to ask Alpha at a time like this but it for one didn't leave my mind. His mother Pam came back with breakfast in hand and greeted me. "Hey baby how did you sleep in here ?" She asked while passing me a breakfast sandwich from the cafe . I hungrily took it from her hand and answered "How about I didn't get any sleep?" I said with a slight laugh. "Yeah I know how it can be with nurses and doctors in and out all times of the night Chile" she replied eating breakfast herself. We sat silently tearing our food up and in walked Alpha and North. North is Kane other right hand mans. He didn't grow up with Kane and Alpha but they became very close during our college years.
"Wassup sis"
North greeted while giving Ma a hug.

"Hey"
I said wiping the corners of my mouth stretching my legs. We all sat around talking for hours , memories of Kane all through the room . Ma left about thirty minutes ago leaving just the guys and I.
"Alright I'm getting ready to head home to shower and change, I'll be back in a couple hours" I stood and said gathering my jacket and keys.

"Alright sis" Alpha stated.
I walked out the room and almost made it to the elevator when I realized I didn't have my phone . I turned and walk back towards the room almost busting in until I heard a heated argument.
"Bro we gotta let her know about it for her own satefy. If Jazz will run Kane off the road what makes you think she won't come for his wife" North angrily stated.
Alpha replied
"the doctors said give it another two days and they will wake him up he can tell her then . She's his side bitch for heaven sakes , that's not just something you can throw at her ." North huffed as if he was angry about something. It was quiet before I heard movement towards the door.

"Yeah you right, All this got damn money in the world and you by your side piece the same car as wifey North stated laughing".
I stood there quiet letting the tears fall from my face . The door opened and both looked shocked not realizing I was still there . The realization of how much I heard hit them like a ton of bricks but I turned and ran forgetting my phone & made my way to the car.

North

Every day I had to get put on the back burner. Lying ,hiding in the shadows. Watching you pretend to be happy with your wife. Watching you constantly surround yourself with bitches you didn't even like. I had to do what I had to do. Hopefully this scared some sense into you though , because I'm tired of the back and forth. Waiting on your broken promises how after graduation you were going to leave her and here we are years later in the same predicament. You can't live your life in fear of what others think . Especially not while playing with my emotions . It don't work like that . As hard as I ride for you! Nah ain't no getting out of this . Our time is now and ima make sure of it.

Alpha
A couple days had passed after the information was revealed to Trinity. No one heard from or was even able to tell her Kane was up and leaving today. I didn't want him to get home and it be a surprise to her so I decided to head over there and check on her. Pulling into her driveway Her car was there so I knew that she was home . I got out and knocked at the door , knowing she didn't want to see my face. She opened the door and stepped to the side to let me in wine bottle in hand . Her curls were everywhere, you could tell she hadn't been out the house. "What the fuck do you want ?" She asked taking a swig from the bottle .. I sighed and answered
"sis you know I couldn't tell you that type of shit , that was left to Kane and he owed you that loyalty not us"
I expressed to her.
She stood quiet for a minute then broke down crying I reached out to pull her in my arms. We made our way to the couch with her crying in my arms. You could tell she was drunk from the stench coming from her body. Suddenly holding her started to become uncomfortable. She had on a thin tank top no bra and mini shorts that could damn near pass for panties. I looked down but quickly looked a way.
"You don't have to be afraid to look you know" she drunkenly exclaimed

"I'm one hell of a woman and I know ima sight to see".
"Come on now sis. You my bro wife so I ah never look at you like that".
I replied but it's like something clicked in her brain, like she was thinking of ways to get revenge . She hopped up ,dropped her shirt sat on my lap and took my lips into her mouth before I could even react. All in the same time her door started to open and in walked North. Shit this did NOT look good especially with her sitting on my lap. I couldn't explain to bro that his wife came on to me and he still trust me. I pushed her off my lap but not enough to harm her and stood to walk towards North.
"Well well well, this is even better" North stated. " I thought I was coming over to tell you , he pointed to Trinity about Kane & I relationship" but now I could just let him know the lies and deceit surrounding him . He won't have no choice but to cry in my arms and see that I was right for him all along he laughed and continued on.
"Bro for one what the fuck are you talking about I asked not believing shit about him and my brother". Nah it can't be . Kane wouldn't keep shit like that away from me I thought . But North started laughing again . "Oh believe me your brother loves me & everything I stand for . He just didn't know how to let go of this bitch" he shouted pointing to Trinity who stood there steadily crying confused just like I was.
" Yeah that's right , Kane and I been together for years but do you think he gave a fuck about me having to watch him with this bitch , do you think he gave a fuck about about me watching him with jazz or any other woman! That shit was just a ploy. He kept other females around because he thought it would wipe out his real feelings for me . He didn't want to believe what we had was real ! He tried to break it off with me" North Screamed!
I couldn't believe what the fuck I was hearing . I was confused hurt and feeling like I been betrayed our whole relationship. My brother could of came to me and told me anything, with no judgement. This shit here though is on a whole 'nother level. " Bro this isn't what it look likes I simply came to check on Trin she's drunk" I calmly stated even though I was heated .
" I don't give a fuck what it is , wait till I spin it and tell Kane" . He will forgive me for hitting him and fall right into my arms" North stated. After the realization of what he said slipped out I drew my gun confused but he already had his out pointed pointed at Trinity.
"Yeah that's right I hit his ass. I went looking for him and found him and Jazz together . He just wouldn't leave her the fuck alone so I had to kill her . He tried to tell me it was over and I just couldn't allow that. Once Jazz dropped dead he fleec the scene but I was quick on my feet stealing Jazz car to kill two birds with one stone . Having them think it was you" he waved his gun a Trinity .
Damn was all I could say in my head . He been right at the hospital with me and everything but played the fuck outta me .
Trinity continued to scream and cry with the gun pointed at her. Your are dumb muthafucka she said
I've been in New York almost a month nigga so the police Knows it couldn't have been me . My plane ticket will show I had a one way .
" Shut the fuck up bitch"
North yelled at her shooting the gun in the air . I took that as my moment to get us the fuck outta here. I shot my gun towards North but he rolled on the floor bullet missing him hitting Kane instead who stood at the door walking in with his mother. He instantly dropped from the bullet wound to the head and all hell broke loose.
Trinity was now uncontrollable, North realized the Mistake I made. He started crying, wildly shooting hitting Trinity right in the neck and Ma stood there frozen .
"You muthafucka you took my love away from me"
he screamed on me gun aimed at my head .
I knew what had to be done so we both stood guns pointed at each other . What we both didn't realize was Ma inching closer towards us. She shot at me for instantly killing her baby but her aim was off so I ducked in time came up & shot North. I was to late. He dropped the same time as Ma did . Four bodies surrounding me , four bodies I couldn't take the fall for four bodies of muthafuckas I loved . What could I do. I didn't even get a chance to see if Trinity was good & Kane didn't even get a chance to talk to his wife , I took my only brother out . Police sirens could be heard in the background . The guilt ate at me . I knew I couldn't go on like this. I took the gun and pointed it at my self . At the same time police barged in "FREEZE" they yelled but I pulled the trigger instantly ending my own life .