solby oneshots

crybaby

"you're such a fucking crybaby," shea laughed, shoving me.
"i just been told my mom died, and you're still being an asshole? i can't even fucking deal with you, get out," i snapped, turning around so i wasn't facing her, yelling loudly. sam was the only one home other than us, and he came racing down the stairs.
"what did you just say?" shea scoffed, stepping closer to me. i couldn't see her, but i could hear her.
"i said get the fuck out," i turned around, yelling, basically screaming.
"you're fucking crazy," she jumped, racing out with a scoff.
"are you ok?" sam asked softly, approaching me slowly.
"no," i said bluntly, looking over at him. he looked hurt at my reaction, and i didn't mean for it to hurt him.
"sorry, i just.. i don't even know what's going on anymore. when i'm with her i don't even feel like myself. and she's so fucking horrible, i don't know what to do," i let the tears fall down my cheeks, knowing sam wouldn't judge me at all.
"do you wanna go upstairs and talk about it?" he asked, pulling me into a hug.
"yeah," i mumbled, wiping tears away from my eyes and following him up there.

"what's going on, colbs?" sam asked, sitting on his bed and patting the space next to him. i smiled softly and sat in the space, looking down at my hands.
"there's a-a lot," i mumbled, looking over at him.
"i'm all ears," he smiled, patting my leg but leaving his hand there. i wasn't complaining by any means. i'd been questioning my sexuality because of sam for as long as i could remember.
"i.. i think i might be gay, a-and i stayed with shea so nobody knew, but she's horrible - like, really horrible. she's nice when you guys are around but as soon as it's just us two she's an absolute bitch. she's hit me, she's manipulated me, i hate her. and you know me, i don't hate a lot of people. and earlier gage rang me and told me that my mom.. my mom's passed, a-and obviously i'm gonna cry and she just made fun of me," i explained, the waterworks going again.
"oh my god," sam said softly, pulling me into another hug. i sobbed softly, clinging onto his shirt. i realised how much i really needed him.
"look at me," he mumbled, letting go of me. i looked up at him with tears falling down my cheeks and he put a finger underneath my chin, making me properly look up at him and blush.
"i love you," he said quietly, looking down at my lips.
"i-i love you too," i responded, followed by both of us leaning in and smashing our lips together. we pulled away for a brief moment, then reconnected our lips more passionately. i put a hand on one side of his face and he let me slowly crawl over him, straddling him.
"i know it's only a kiss, but i have to ask," sam mumbled, pulling away. i nodded and sat back slightly.
"what are we?" he asked, placing his hands on my hips.
"...i don't know," i said after a minute of thinking.
"i don't wanna make you uncomfortable by saying we have to get together or anything, so i'm gonna leave that one up to you, ok?" he explained, rubbing soft circles into my hips. i nodded and smiled, distracted from the shittiness that was reality.
"i wanna be with you," i said slowly, nodding as i spoke.
"are you sure?" he asked, smiling. i nodded and grinned, him chuckling.
"what are we gonna tell shea?" i gasped, realising.
"don't worry about that now, ok? we need to figure out what we're gonna tell the roommates first," sam chuckled, placing a soft kiss to my lips.
"i think we should see how long we can keep it a secret for," i grinned, him chuckling.
"sounds fun," he smiled, pecking my lips.

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this ones a bit short but oh well