PETALS * Ochaco Uraraka x Hanahaki! Reader * BNHA fanfiction

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I loved everything about her. Her bright smile, her cute laugh, her scent of cherry blossom petals. And yet I couldn't muster up the courage to even talk to her. She would always come up to me in the halls and say hello. She would wave to me during lunch. This girl was always so nice to everyone. I just couldn't wait any longer.

I tore off a piece of paper from my notebook and wrote neatly at the top, 'I love you Ochaco.'. I was about to ask a friend to put the note on her desk when I saw Ochaco being led out of the room by Midoriya.

I watched them through the glass on the door, making sure to be discreet. I could see Midoriya talking, Ochaco blushing, and then they kissed.

My eyes were torn away from the sight when pain erupted in my stomach. I started coughing, - no, hacking, and I couldn't stop. I ran out of the classroom and into the restroom. I bent over the trash can and coughed up... flower petals? I shook my head. That couldn't be right.

"(Y/N), are you okay?" someone yelped, looking alarmed.

I turned and saw Jiro standing behind me. I gave a slight nod and stood up. Her eyes found their way to the pink petals I had coughed up. She gave a small yell of surprise before looking back at me.

"Do you know what disease you have (Y/N)?" She asked, trying to stay calm.

"N-no, I don't know."

"Have you heard of Hanahaki?" (To this I shook my head) "Hanahaki disease is an illness you get when your crush has feelings for someone else. You start coughing up flowers, and eventually you d-die."

My eyes widened and filled with tears. So this is how I'll die.

"D-don't worry though, (Y/N), you can have surgery, but you will lose all romantic feelings towards your crush. Or you can confess to them and see if they return your feelings. If they do love you as well, the f-flowers disappear," Jiro said shakily.

I nodded my head and sighed.

"W-who did this to you?" Jiro asked, tears forming in her eyes.

"U-uraraka did, b-but."

"Who does she love?"

"I think s-she loves Midoriya," I said, voice cracking on the word 'love'.

I started to have a coughing fit again and more pink petals drifted out of my mouth, along with... blood. Its metallic taste stained my mouth and I winced. Jiro looked at me with concerned eyes and told me to get the surgery.

"No, I love Ochaco with all of my heart! I don't want to live without her bright smile cheering me up everyday!" I argued.

Jiro sighed and said, "Let's just get back to class."

I nodded and we walked together, Jiro assuring me that everything was alright and that I would be fine. As I walked into the classroom, I saw Ochaco and Midoriya hugging. Jiro whispered to ignore them and we walked back to our seats. I felt petals in my throat but gulped them down, assuring myself that I wouldn't die.

Classes went on as usual and I ignored Ochaco and her new boyfriend. When school was over I rushed back to the dorms and barricaded myself in my room.

I looked up 'Hanahaki' on my phone, and sure enough, the symptoms glared right at me. I started reading them: '1. Coughing 2. Petals falling from mouth 3. Trouble breathing', and many more. I sighed and shut my phone off. Even with my love for Ochaco, I could not help but consider the advice Jiro had given me.

'Come on, (Y/N)! Get the surgery so you can live! Please!'

Tears fell from my eyes as I pictured Ochaco and Midoriya kissing in the hallways. At lunch she held his hand and giggled like she did that everyday. The truth was, I wanted to be the one who she kissed. I wanted to hold her hands and giggle with her. I wanted it to be me!

I silently scolded myself for acting like a child. I should be happy for her, shouldn't I? My head told me that I was being selfish, while my heart told me to get the girl of my dreams. I let tears fall down my face and didn't bother to stop the petals that were being forced out of my throat.

I sat on my bed and told myself I would be fine. Nothing matters except Ochaco being happy. Everything is for Ochaco. If I loved her, I should be happy.

Suddenly, I questioned my motives. Why did I always put her first? Should I take the surgery like Jiro advised me to, or should I let Ochaco live her life without me in it at all? There was no point in telling her my feelings when she was dating Midoriya.

I scowled at the thought of him. He took her away from me. I was going to confess with the note, but I couldn't do it, all because of him!

I shook my head.

Why would I blame it on him? It was my fault for not confessing sooner. What kind of hero would blame her friend anyways?

I spent all of that night locked away in my room, bawling my eyes out. I made an excuse not to come to dinner and not to join Mina and Denki in a round of Monopoly. I stayed up late into the night, not wanting to go to sleep when I could possibly die in my sleep. My eyes drooped and I wanted to sleep, but my mind wouldn't allow me. It was racing with thoughts and I started to get a headache.

'Is she really worth it?' I asked myself as I drifted to sleep.