Boyf~Reinds: It's in the past now.

It's in the past now

Jeremy and Michael have regained their relationship. They've even begun to date. One day, Michael is in the shower when Jeremy finds a notebook with a song written, apparently by Michael, describing suicidal thoughts and deep depression at abandonment. And when Jeremy reads the line 'Michael in the bathroom', he realized just how bad he messed up.

Inspired in part by the Dear Evan Hansen novels, where Zoe was the one who wrote 'Requiem' and 'Only Us', but it was Michael who wrote 'Michael in the Bathroom'. I DO NOT OWN 'MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM' IN ANY WAY. LYRICS ARE USED FOR STORY PURPOSES ONLY. I ALSO DO NOT OWN THE ART, I FOUND IT ON GOOGLE IMAGES AND THOUGHT IT FIT WITH THE STORY.

A/N: I went back through and edited this, it's flow was entirely off... So enjoy the better version.

TRIGGER WARNING (PAST SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, PAST SELF-HARM, DEPRESSION, PTSD, ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS, NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS )

And with that, let's dive in!

Jeremy's POV

    "Yo! Michael, you got any paper?" Jeremy called. He heard a small thud from the bathroom and a curse. 

    "In my desk! There should be some there!" Michael called from the shower. Jeremy smiled at his boyfriend's voice. They had begun to date around two months ago. The whole 'SQUIPcident' had happened around a year ago. Everyone had mostly recovered from the ordeal, at least physically. Of course, Rich's burns would always leave scars. Jeremy's electric burns had faded, but were still visible and likely would be for the rest of his life. Jake was walking again, becoming a medical miracle (C'mon, he broke both legs and was forced to dance on them, that doesn't ever completely heal.), but tired easily and couldn't do any sports or extra-curricular classes, much to his dismay.

       But the mental scars were much worse, and much farther from healing. Everyone that had been in the play had nightmares and a newfound suspicion of any type of pill. None of them would drink Mountain Dew Green anymore, for the fear of re-activating the SQUIPs. Tic-Tacs were out too, which had led to multiple encounters. Once, a new girl offered Rich a Tic-Tac. No one blamed her, she was just trying to make a friend, but Rich had smacked the container out of her hand and stomped it to pieces. The girl had been freaked out, but ok. Meanwhile, Rich had been sent into a panic attack (another common thing among them, most of the cast had panic attacks now), only calming down once Jake had gotten to him (He had still been in his wheelchair then). Jeremy couldn't help smile as he thought of his two friends. They had begun dating a month before Michael and Jeremy, and about a week after Jake came out as pansexual.

     "Did you find it?" Michael called, snapping Jeremy out of his daze of thoughts. Jeremy pulled a notebook out of the desk, a random, blue-covered spiral-bound notebook.

    "Got it! Thanks!!" He called back, flipping the cover of the notebook open. The pages were mostly blank, except for a few in the middle. Those were covered in a frantic, shaky, desperate scrawl, dried tears dotting the page. The margins were covered in scribbled notes. Jeremy squinted, trying to decipher the familiar handwriting. 

I am hanging in the bathroom

At the biggest party of the fall

I could stay right here or disappear

And nobody'd even notice at all

     Jeremy frowned a bit. A poem? Or maybe a song? What was this?

I'm a creeper in a bathroom