I Never Told

Chapter 3

I blinked my eyes against the bright light. 

"She's with us for now. Get her into surgery." My eyes felt as if they weighed a hundred pounds. "No, no. Sweet heart you gotta stay awake. Come on now. Be strong." I tried with all of the force within me, but without my consent my eyes drifted closed and I was thrown into a fitful dream.

"Gibbs...." I ran to him, but with every step I took forward he seemed to glide back five. "Gibbs! Don't leave me again!" I tried to step forward but my feet had sunken into the ground.

"Why would I stay with you?" His smirk, usually so kind, turned cruel. "You're a weird little child." Then he turned and extended his hand as a horde of red heads walked forward and swarmed around him. I couldn't see him anymore.

"No, Gibbs." I struggled against my bonds but they held tight.

"Why would I want you?" His words echoed until all I heard was, "Why? Why? Why?" 

"Because I love you!" I tried to shout but the same thing that had my feet stuck to the floor glued my mouth shut.

"Patient is Abigail Scuito. She was in a hit and run two weeks ago. We've been keeping her in a medical coma to allow her body to heal, but she should be waking up any time now."

Hit and run? That must've been when I was in the car with.... "Gibbs," My throat felt like a desert. I coughed, "Where's Gibbs?" I stared at the doctor. 

"Abby," Ziva walked in and rushed over to me.

"Ziva." I tried to smile. "What happened? Where's Gibbs?" She squeezed my hand. 

"You were in a hit and run.... the impact broke two of your ribs and punctured your lungs.... You flat lined. You were dead for two minutes." She coughed away tears.

"Where .... Where's Gibbs, Ziva? Is he okay. Why isn't he here?" 

She looked at the floor, then the celling, then my IV before starting ."Gibbs is..." 

"I'm sorry to interrupt ladies, but I need to check up on Abigail." A nurse walked in.

"Abby," I corrected automatically.

"Alright Abby, how would you rate your pain on a scale of one to ten?"

 I shrugged then winced. "Six?"

 She nodded."Alright, that's good." 

Ziva looked at me. "I'm going to go tell Tony and McGee you are awake." I looked from her to the door.

"Ziva!" I coughed. "Fine." I groaned. 

"Is there anything you need?" The nurse looked at me expectantly.

"Water." I smiled. She handed me a cup then turned to walk away. "Wait! Do you know what happened to the man who was in the car with me?" I pleaded with my eyes.

"Leroy Jethro Gibbs?" She questioned.

"Yes!" I smiled. "He's okay, right?" 

Her face softened. "Oh honey, I'm sorry he didn't make it through surgery." What? "He passed away." She looked at me sympathetically . 

"But he's Gibbs, he can't be.... NO!" I broke down in tears ."No! I never told him...." The nurse took my hand.

"Whatever it was I'm sure he knew." I love....loved him and I never told him.

"I never told." I sobbed.

"Oh he knew, sweetheart." I sobbed even harder. Huge sobs that shook my body and hurt every time I breathed.