The tears keep rolling down my burning cheeks uncontrollably. Everytime I glance back at the laptop screen more tears are generated. I know I should be better with the hate by now, but I'm not. I knew making youtube videos comes with the haters and not just fans, but its all just too much for me.
There is so much hate for the silliest things and I'm sick of it. If they didnt like me why not just stop watching my videos just so you can comment hate on them. My palms feel sweaty, my cheeks flushed with red and my head dizzy. I feel trapped! My breathing is heavy. Here I go again another panic attack, which just results In more crying.
I drag the mouse over to click on the create new tweet button and start typing. Bare with me on Vlogmas. I'm taking a few days out and off the internet because its clouding up my brain. Thanks for understanding <3. That should do it then I shut down and put my laptop on the coffe table, this Is what I need to take my mind of things an internet detox.
I thought my new book; girl online would be a good exciting thing, and dont get me wrong I have broken records with the most book sold and I'm so thankful. I'm not taking my fans for granted I'm greatful of the support they are giving me but the negative comments drown out all of the support. My phone beeps willing me to anwser the nasty tweets being sent to it. But I close my eyes, take a deep breath and ignore. I can't let the fear overcome, I'm sure it will all pass over, by tomorrow everyone will of forgottten. That's what i keep telling my brain to prevent the panic attacks but I'm not convinced.
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ZALFIE - Behind the camera
FanfictionThis is a fanfic written from Zoe`s point of view. How Alfie has helped her. Thanks 4 reading, follow for follow and give it a vote if u enjoyed
