Summary: y/n always had a thing for Ethan and no one else. Their best friends with benefits has been going well until someone new came along.
Word count: 1.3k
Warnings: ANGST
For almost all of my life my heart only belonged to one man. And you might think who is that man, well that man is Ethan Grant Dolan. My childhood best friend since elementary. I honestly don't know when I started loving him more as a best friend, but I honestly don't care.
I love Grayson too it's just the connection between me and Ethan is just... magical. Like when I'm around him I feel more calm. So when one day Ethan came up to me and asked me if i wanted to be best friends with benefits. I dumbly said yes not knowing that, that very choice that I made was possibly the worst and best thing that has happened to me.
We have been doing it for at least 2 years. I love the way he tells me I'm beautiful, I love the way that he always was a gentleman towards me. He was and always will be my first love. I honestly never thought that our deal will end, until she came into the picture.
Her name was Annie.
Ever since she walked in it was like she took all of his attention and love. Ethan stopped showing affection towards me. He even stopped talking to me for a few days because he was in a little road trip with her. I wasn't feeling jealous. Really, but what I was feeling was broken.
I wanted to be the one he was holding and calling baby. I wanted to be the one who was wrapped around his arms. I wanted to be the one who he loves. And she took that all away from me.
So what better way to deal with my emotions is by drinking. I actually don't drink a lot. If I do it's because I want to clear my mind of things or I just don't want to feel the pain. Me and the twins planned on going to this party Kyle was throwing.
Once we got there I saw Ethan head off to the dance floor with Annie. It's funny how he hates dancing, but is dancing here right now with her. I quickly went to the drink section to get myself a beer. I opened it, chugging it down immediately. I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around seeing Grayson.
"y/n please don't drink a lot" he gave me a look. I nodded, actually listening to him for once. I put the beer down, getting out of the kitchen, going into the living room when I froze. What I saw was Annie and Ethan kissing. I tried to hold back the tears, but at least like one of them slipped out. Yes I knew that Ethan was drunk right now and won't remember what he did in the morning, but that won't mean that I still don't feel hurt.
I quickly found my things and left, that was until I felt someone grabbing my arm. again I turned around and say Grayson there, "what do you want Gray" I coldly spoke.
"y/n why are leaving. It's only 11." he asked. I pulled my arm away from him, trying to get out again, "goddamn it y/n don't walk away from me" Grayson yelled that so loudly that everyones head turned around seeing you and Grayson fighting.
"just leave me alone Grayson I don't feel good okay" I felt my cheeks getting embarrassed because of the amount of people looking at us yell at each other.
"i'm done with this shit Grayson, i'll talk to you later, okay." I went to the door and left going into my car. once I was inside the tears were coming out of my eyes like water falls. I stopped crying after a few minutes, I went to go and turn on my car. this day was so shitty. I just wanna go home.
*skip car ride*
I came home sighing while I took off all my clothes and went into the shower. I don't wanna see them anymore I need to learn how to move on now. Well maybe I might see Grayson, I just can't see Ethan. It hurts every time I see him because he's with her and I don't wanna keep on pretending that I don't have feelings for him. I love him so much that it hurts so bad.
If only he felt the same way we wouldn't be in this situation. I would be right there at the party with him, dancing together. He didn't even come looking for me and that hurts. I forgot to text Grayson that I was safe, but I'll do that when I'm out of the shower. I turn the knob and wait until the water is hot. This was a long day.
Ethan's POV
I woke up with a pounding headache. What happened last night, also why is y/n not next to me. I've been so used to seeing her on my bed that it's hard for me to sleep without her there. I checked my phone hoping to see a special text from a certain someone. Y/n, she has a special ring and contact name. Well maybe she is probably cooking downstairs with Grayson I thought really hoping she was. When I got down I lost all my hope. Instead seeing y/n down there I only see Grayson and Annie. I really shouldn't be feeling hurst and confused, but what can I do. I've been so used to her being around all the time that I kinda just know she will be here.
"Good morning babe" Annie came up to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I felt a little disgusted by it. What's happening to you I thought you liked Annie my subconscious told me. Well I don't know what happened ok I responded back.
This whole day Grayson had a worried face. I was gonna ask when suddenly he came into my room and yelled out that we need to check if y/n is ok. I was confused on why he was so worried about that, but went with him anyways. It was a long and awkward ride. Once we got there I knocked on her door first, I waited to see if she would open it and luckily she opened it after a few seconds.
"Ethan what are you doing here" she bluntly spoke. I was gonna ask her why the attitude, but decided not to.
"I came here to check up on you. Me and Gray were worried about you." She looked into my eyes to see if I was telling the truth. She sighed and started hesitating to talk.
"Ethan I- I'm ok and tell Grayson that he can stop checking up on me. I just want you to leave now." She started to push me out of the way. I took both of her hands and stopped her from pushing me out more.
"Why do you want me to leave y/n. Why haven't you texted me today. I was waiting ya know." I gave her my infamous puppy eyes. She sighed looking down. I put two fingers on her chin, making her look at me with those beautiful eyes.
"I want you to leave because I love you and I'm tying to move on from you." She mumbled.
"Wait what" I asked her.
"I said that I want you to leave because I love you and I'm trying to move on." She said more louder and clearer. I stood there shocked and dumbfounded.
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A/n: I'm doing another series on this book:). As you can tell it is sad. I've been feeling soft lately so it been kinda hard writing smut because of how soft and sad I've been. Anyways I love you guys
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love, keisi
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