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12

There are few moments in our lives. How we want to win in every tough situation. We want to show our side, we want to be victorious.

But, this is not a movie.

We are in reality. Movies, are illustrations which keeps the human mind in satisfaction. Not eyeryone's ending is happy. Not everyone ends with a man of their dreams. Not everyone fulfills their wishes from a genie.

This is life.

Here, things go differently. Sometimes unexpected as the clock ticks in.

The clock was ticking.

I was waiting for Jungkook's response. No matter how little our age gap is. I am ofcourse, more experienced and more wiser one among us.

I mastered skills every single day as a child. Lost almost no time. Why? I had to be better.

I had no time. I always thought, I needed to be successful before my 20s. Worldwidely known and stable continuosly before my 30's. Have the same passion and hope until 40s. Never regret a single thing, a single decision until my death.

My life was hectic. I never had the time to play with other kids, because I thought, I can master at something instead of wasting time.

It resulted me with wisdom. I was never cheated. I never got hurt. Because. I knew it before and avoided it myself. I was too blind to notice I kept running away from being hurt.

I blindingly lost my life living normally like other kids because I thought differently.

I never noticed.

"So?" I asked, making myself sit infront of him. Not quite in front. Maybe a bit decent distance.

"I don't know if you will believe or not but.." he continued as an almost silent tone. Still enough for me to hear.

He looked at me, his eyes secretly wanting for permit whether he should continue or not. I blinked as a sign to continue on from where he trailed off. Seems like he got the sign.

"I honestly can't remember anything." He said,

"Not even how they looked?" I asked, unconscious at the fact how a sweat smoothly fell downwards despite the chilly weather.

He shakes his head.

"Everytime I try to remember, a strange yet unclear vision comes for a moment, then it ends of with a painful headache." he confesses.

As innocence trails from your face I can see how well you cover your insecurities deep beneath your heart. You keep them locked away from the world.

Even after sheltering you in my own abode, I still failed to gain your trust. Not that I blame you, I suspect you.

Noticing the tension lingering in the air as each second passes unconsciously. I decide to burst out the tensed bubble between us and vividly, purposely change the topic.

"Wanna netflix and chill tomorrow?" I asked the boy, tucking him under his bed, a lamp with yellowish light, helping him see me and vice versa. After asking the question I leaned towards the wall that separates the room and the lobby.

"What's 'netflix and chill'?" he asked, his weird shaped eyes widened as he did so.

"Let's discover it tomorrow," I said. Slightly smiling towards the fact how cute he is.

"Goodnight, Kook." I said before turning the doorknob to close the door and go back to my room.

My room was two rooms away from his. After swiftly closing the door

I took my time to change and bathe. A;ter my night routine, I dried off my hair with a towel and started to feel sleepy. I heard a smack outside my window.

Suddenly feeling blood rush to my brain, I became alert. I instantly look towards the window and opened it. After a good while of checking, when I saw no one, not even at the street, I became suspicious of myself whether I heard or it was a mere illusion.

How strange. I definitely know there was something.

Shaking my head, I went back and closed the window tightly. I put on the curtains and changed into my night pajamas.

Soon I slept, doubt still not washed away.

"What shall we do today?" I asked Jungkook.

Both of us were bored at the sofa. After finishing breakfast the dirty dishes were left in the sink. My body exhausted from today's routine. A strange abnormality came to me. After last night's incident, I couldn't focus today. By the way, a tragic incident happened today.

Earlier

After my workout, I decided to go for a run. Forgetting about the sticky note, I ran off and took a bit more time than the usual. I caressed the kitten that usually sleeps by the road my house situates at.

It was a stray, dirty kitten. White fur, almost grey and muddy due to dirt. I used to feed her before coming to these area. But now I realized, it lives in this area.
The kitten was malnutrished. Looking weak, but it still didn't lost it's spark. Thriving to live still.

I decided to buy a catfood and bring it to the stray kitten. But before I could open the can and give it to her, a dark grey hooded man squatted down to the kitten. I decided to slowly move over.

He was feeding the cat. Maybe, the cat's previous owner or interested person.

What am I gonna do with this?

I looked towards the catfood tin. Then an idea came to me, I decided to approach the guy in hood, still watching the kitten in silence.

I tapped on his shoulder and moved a slight back. He looked towards me and stood their for a bit. After a few seconds, he stood up to me. I noticed the man had blonde-hair. His face was round shaped, pale and smooth. His eyes were small but one has to admit he is attractive.

I bowed slightly at him and he cocked a brow. I gave him the catfood. He stared at the catfood.

"I bought this thinking about the kitten. When I came back, I saw you near it so, I think you might need this." I said to him practically forcing him the tin.

"I don't need this." he said looking towards me, annoyed.

"It is not for you, it is for the cat." I said sarcastically. He widened his eyes and before he could say anything I ran back to my house abruptly. He called me from behind but I didn't listen.

As the incident replayed through my eyes, as each second grew I started to cringe about my actions. But still, he rejected free things.

What a dumb guy, Who rejects free things?

I went to open the main door until I heard someone sobbing. Curiously I went inside and before anything else happened, I saw Jungkook. Scared.

When he noticed me, he ran towards me swiftly and hugged me, without taking a second thought about it.

What in the-

"I thought I lost you." He said sniffling a bit.