Above Love

Fourteen

Hmm you look nice.

Hey youth, It's me Above and I think I'm falling in love...

We were pulling in to Shake and Fries today Jo got his baber license and we wanted to celebrate.

"Congrats Jo." I handed him my gift.
"You didn't have too, but uhh since you did why not." her opened up box and jumped.

"Lets goo I knew it! Thank thank you." he hugged me super hard he left a mark on my chocolate skin.

"ouche!"  I got him pro gold Clipper barber set. It was a little over 500 dollars but he deserves it he's the older brother I never had and has done so much for me.

"Im proud of y'all." him and Damien are finally gone open up there shop now they both have the license.

"Wow how is my present gone ever compete." Livy said me and Nadja both pointed down.

"Aw yeah I forgot about my magic-"

"Hey y'all ." Khiry walked in.
We all had a good time but I was so nervous and my adrenaline was up.

Khiry looked at me and I felt like I could pass out. I felt my stomach and not's and began to overthink.

"Im ready to go please." I whispered to Nadja.

"Ill take you." Khiry said.

"No no no Nadja got me I'm good." That's the last thing I want to happen!

"But we literally live next door."

"im okay Nadja got me."

"Its no trouble at all-"

"Fuck it ill catch the bus!" I said slamming the table and walking out.

"What your problem did I do something wrong?" he said following me out.
I kept walking.

"What did I do." He turned me around and I got lost in his eyes for a split second but snapped out of it.

"What don't you get leave me alone!"
I caught the bus home and the stop was two blocks from my house so I still had to walk but guess what...

"Get in!"

"No." I said rolling my eyes he stepped out the car and buckled me in.

"Im sorry for whatever I did." He sounded a little mad and sad it made me feel bad but I just don't want a crush or boyfriend nun of that so I'll just have to go back to being the old Solei before Khiry showed up.

"Were here." he said. I stepped out the car and walked to my door unlocking it.

"Wait, my hug?" he said with his arms out I slammed the door in his face and ran upstairs.

"Forgot I have a key." I jumped out of bed nearly having a heart attack.

"Hug Solei, and I'll go." I hugged him. He rocked us and squeezed tight then kissed my forehead.
"Hope your mean ass feels better tomorrow." he jogged down the steps and left.

I unlocked my phone and I blocked him from everything. I just couldn't stand feeling this way I'm just a kid I don't think I'm ready.

flashback :

"And I can't decide my favorite color." Khiry said.
"Your such a baby." I said we laughed, his smile dropped and he looked at me.
"You dating?"
"No, I don't do relationships."
"oh your still on that?"

"There over ratted I mean we're just kids bound to be in some type of one way struggle love. " I got up dancing crazy he started laughing I guess it was still in my system.

"Aye kill it. Go off crack head." he said throwing monopoly money at me. We laughed then I laid back down

"Okay but how could I trust you when the word lie is in your name." He said and looked at him.

"Lei number one and because I don't do relationships simple matter of fact how about I lie you out and give you an example"

"Baby your not about it."

"Whatever I'm done I'm not your baby." I whacked him with a pillow and he fell out of the bed we had pillow fight until we fell asleep.
-

I just can't lead him on like this.
Lately we've been having a good time.

We play football work out together he even painted my toes!

But all it does is make me have these feelings I don't want to have.

I can just see us getting together just for us to never talk again because of something dumb.

Once again it's we go days without talking but this time it's because I just straight up ignore him and it's killing me.

I know if he did it to me I'd be hurt if he did the same but it's for the best... At least I hope so.

-

I missed school today so at least I won't have to purposely ignore Khiry.

But the worst part is I have the worst fucking cramps my doctor said I could do birth control but I don't trust that. I know that who ever I gone lay with in the future is gone be baby daddy material.

I threw up three times this morning and can't even sit up.

"Baby I'm gonna head to work I got 7 up ginger ale and sprit in fridge i left some money so when you get hungry."

"Okay mom I love you!"
"i love you more."

I finally went to sleep but it didn't feel like it I was still cramping.

I woke up to Khiry rubbing my stomach with a heat pad.

"Finally you up."

"eww what are you in my house for."

"I wanted to check on you."

"Shouldn't you be mad I'm ignoring you."

"Nah I got you some chicken soup and ginger ale ."

"Mm thanks."

My stomach finally felt better.
He helped me take down my braids and we watched Netflix... Well he watched Netflix I watched him.