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"Astoria trust me Clement's the one for you." Danny mouths. "Look,he is outside his hostel and waving at you at 1am in the morning" Amy points with her finger. "I am telling you ash he only came with me till Pennsylvania just for you and we all have seen him looking at you when you're not looking at him" adds manny. Annoyed by there stupid assumptions i finally open my mouth.
"Guys i get it but im not interested. I need time to move on i just want to be single, i knew from the beginning itself that Clement had started growing feelings for me but guys i respect that alot. I can't do that with him okay" i sigh after explaining it to them.
"Yaya cry over your stupid ex who cares you are so blind to see someone love you so much that can do anything for you."Danny rolls her eyes and gets back to talking with her boyfriend on call. I smile. Amy and mandy has stayed single for years sometimes they just worry about what kind of person they are going to meet in the future. They go back to their own bed and i too go back to mine. I plug in my earphones and just imagine myself in a mountain far away from the people just doing my work, no memories to hurt me and no humans to take me down. I just drown myself into that one imagination that actually makes me happy and I didn't even realise i fell asleep.
Next morning i wake up and go through my phone. No text and no calls from him up till now. I just close my eyes and pray that he is doing well with her, i just think sometimes if he really wanted to end things with me , why did he pretend to be in love with me for months?!
When i use to come here for college his behaviour towards me use to drastically change, i use to even fail to recognize the same person that i first fell for. I am dealing with my mood swings because i often use to throw him my anger which also made it to a point to leave me for that. All those promises made in the beginning don't mean that much in the end or in the middle. I was having aniexty which caused me sleep deprivation and i use to tell him he use to get angry and ask "so am i suppose to stay awake with you?" I still remember that but i never brought that up in any circumstances because i knew he would still point his finger at me for every wrong things.
I check the time its 8:00 am and i quickly come out from my bed and do my morning routine.
On my way to the classroom i meet Clement. "HELLO ASOO" he greets me with a smile. "Hi, i greet him back and walk away with a smile plastered on my face. What does he see in me to look at me with those shiny eyes? He has always been helping me from the day he joined. But never knew that he would still be around .There was this rumour that he and Kim is dating but it all came to an end when Kim confessed that they two were best friends. But one day Kim stopped me on my way and asked me if we could talk i politely told her yes and walked outside with her. She then told me about Clement's feelings towards me and from this college expect for Kims number he had mine. He did not ask anyone he just asked mine and texted through whatsapp. I was kind of taken back by surprise but it all made sense when he chose to hide my leave letter to save my attendance. At first i was confused but whatever Kim told me it all had started to make sense. I smiled feeling loved in this harsh world but i wasn't being able to move on i needed time it is going to take me years to move on. I cannot just replace everything in a day or in a weeks like him. I am not him. I don't prove, i suffer, i wait and i don't regret.
Classes began same monotonous work every single day. I look outside my window and thought Will he ever come back to me and apologise?!
AUTHOR'S NOTE: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING 🍭
